[Intro:Zoetic]
I made a promise i'd make a song about you
I just wish it was on better terms...
[Verse:Zoetic]
Sometimes life, kicks you in the a** but you just gotta try
To pick yourself up remind yourself you're still alive
I done took a nosedive, into depression
No redemption for these actions spreadin' just like an infection
I'm just left with the memories, exerting all my energy
Into something that can't be fixed i hope that she remembers me
Cause i will never forget, all the things you promised
All the times that you were honest
Me and you were perfect artists
Never thought it'd come to this
Callin' you a hypocrite
But in my heart i know the thoughts i have are bullsh**
I got this frustration
For how much concentration
It takes for me to not think about you and stay complacent
First i was low as the basement now i'm in the foundation
Digging deep inside myself to find mental mutations
Peeling off my scabs to mend these open wounds
If i don't do something now then i'm sure meetin' my doom
First thing i gotta do is be able to sleep in my room
Can't even go to bed without you by my side
Wait for my eyes to dry before i go outside
Did someone steal ya heart? go and join the club
You gotta play your cards, that's the power of love
Lord knows i'm trying
(Lord knows i'm trying)
Cause i've been using these spades trying to dig up these diamonds
And we are, so sick, my crew up in a crown vic
I bounce quick, cause what used to distract me now only got me reacting to everything it triggers
Ya scent on my pillow lingers
Makes me wanna pull a trigger
And aim it at the mirror
This picture needs to be clearer
Cause if it's life without her or d**h, i would choose neither!
Throat closed up form these tears that i cry
That's why its hard for me to go and swallow my pride
Lost the woman that i thought was going to be my bride
Made some crucial mistakes but i can't say i didn't try
Got me like a spy lookin' through her friend's snapchat
Ask the man "where you at?" wishin' he would write back!
I done dealt my cards wrong and bust like Blackjack
I'd give anything to backtrack
To the source of the problem
Go back in time and solve em
I had to walk through the rain but now i see the clouds darken
All these storm clouds above me
Does she still love me!
People tellin' me she moved on
I know the facts are in my face but i keep thinkin' they're wrong
Reflect upon my flaws, this is more than a loss
It's like a gun to a knife
What's a person lost in d**h to a person lost in life?
Looking at that pile of broken reminders
In the corner of my room i need to wear some blinders
400 miles away but i can feel the pain from here
Feeling helpless on an island trying to repress the fear
After everything we've been through
She made it clear and simple
Faced the d**h sentence got me feelin' like a criminal
Empty shell of a man what stands before you's heartless
Cause this woman left me cold as i slip into darkness...