Zoetic - Lost Love lyrics

[Intro:Zoetic] I made a promise i'd make a song about you I just wish it was on better terms... [Verse:Zoetic] Sometimes life, kicks you in the a** but you just gotta try To pick yourself up remind yourself you're still alive I done took a nosedive, into depression No redemption for these actions spreadin' just like an infection I'm just left with the memories, exerting all my energy Into something that can't be fixed i hope that she remembers me Cause i will never forget, all the things you promised All the times that you were honest Me and you were perfect artists Never thought it'd come to this Callin' you a hypocrite But in my heart i know the thoughts i have are bullsh** I got this frustration For how much concentration It takes for me to not think about you and stay complacent First i was low as the basement now i'm in the foundation Digging deep inside myself to find mental mutations Peeling off my scabs to mend these open wounds If i don't do something now then i'm sure meetin' my doom First thing i gotta do is be able to sleep in my room Can't even go to bed without you by my side Wait for my eyes to dry before i go outside Did someone steal ya heart? go and join the club You gotta play your cards, that's the power of love Lord knows i'm trying (Lord knows i'm trying) Cause i've been using these spades trying to dig up these diamonds And we are, so sick, my crew up in a crown vic I bounce quick, cause what used to distract me now only got me reacting to everything it triggers Ya scent on my pillow lingers Makes me wanna pull a trigger And aim it at the mirror This picture needs to be clearer Cause if it's life without her or d**h, i would choose neither! Throat closed up form these tears that i cry That's why its hard for me to go and swallow my pride Lost the woman that i thought was going to be my bride Made some crucial mistakes but i can't say i didn't try Got me like a spy lookin' through her friend's snapchat Ask the man "where you at?" wishin' he would write back! I done dealt my cards wrong and bust like Blackjack I'd give anything to backtrack To the source of the problem Go back in time and solve em I had to walk through the rain but now i see the clouds darken All these storm clouds above me Does she still love me! People tellin' me she moved on I know the facts are in my face but i keep thinkin' they're wrong Reflect upon my flaws, this is more than a loss It's like a gun to a knife What's a person lost in d**h to a person lost in life? Looking at that pile of broken reminders In the corner of my room i need to wear some blinders 400 miles away but i can feel the pain from here Feeling helpless on an island trying to repress the fear After everything we've been through She made it clear and simple Faced the d**h sentence got me feelin' like a criminal Empty shell of a man what stands before you's heartless Cause this woman left me cold as i slip into darkness...