[Hook: Sample of Jhené Aiko's - The Worst]
I don't need you, I don't need you, I don't need you
But I want you
I don't mean to, I don't mean to, I don't mean to
But I love you
I don't need you, I don't need you, I don't need you
But I want you
I don't mean to, I don't mean to, I don't mean to
But I love you
[Verse 1]
They just see the final edit, they don't ever know behind the scenes
CJ's living a nightmare, Yungen's living the dream
Wore a fake smile for years, now it's starting to wear off, sh** they ain't got a clue where I been
They say I'm paranoid, well you try being kidnapped as a kid
A gun put to your head and taken from where you live
I saw psychiatrists for months, them people mess up how you think
I swear to God I ain't been the same since
Too young to understand, but old enough to be scared
My dad took me to Jamaica until everything cleared
Come back to a new house, new school - now everything's so weird
Thinking back it still leaves me in tears
Fast forward some years
My mum f**ed off to Jamaica
Left me home alone at 13, that sh** made me hate her
Probably 'cos I used to love her so much
She was gone 3 months and barely kept in touch
Going through hell, thinking life ain't fair
I felt like my older sister was the only one there
No electric, no gas here but who can I tell
'cos if I do I'll probably end up in care
But while you was out robbing man for fun, I was robbing 'cos I had to
Everybody called me a bad yout'
That tore me up because they didn't have a clue
They judged me, I just wished they knew
[Hook]
Don't take this personal
I don't need you, I don't need you, I don't need you
But I want you
I don't mean to, I don't mean to, I don't mean to, I don't mean to
But I love you
Don't take this personal
I don't need you, I don't need you, I don't need you
But I want you
I don't mean to, I don't mean to, I don't mean to, I don't mean to
But I love you
[verse 2: Yungen]
I ain't been school in weeks
I was out on the streets
There weren't one single lesson teaching me how to eat
Has your house ever been so cold you can't sleep?
I was in the ends trying to make ends meet
Yeah, my mum come back but she was gone again before I knew it
It's sad, I just got used to it
But when she came back for good she kicked me out, yeah I've been through it
Only the Lord knows how I didn't lose it
They tried to put me in a hostel in a ends that I've got beef in
It's so peak that I ain't sleeping
I just wanna go home but it's real here and I ain't leavin'
Trying to speak to God, all I got was a ceiling
Hoping my dad would come and save me but he ain't tried
Plus one of my closest friends just died
I felt like my whole world was crumblin' before my eyes
There were times I didn't wanna be alive
But take all of this away I wouldn't be who I am
Even though it wasn't part of the plan
Real sh**, that turned me from a boy to a man
I'm tryna sort everything that I can
Tryna rebuild with my mum, hoping she's gonna change
Even though they say that she's to blame
But for once in my life, I don't need her but I want her, I still love her, I hope she feels the same
[Hook]
Don't take this personal
I don't need you, I don't need you, I don't need you
But I want you
I don't mean to, I don't mean to, I don't mean to, I don't mean to
But I love you
Don't take this personal
I don't need you, I don't need you, I don't need you
But I want you
I don't mean to, I don't mean to, I don't mean to, I don't mean to
But I love you
Don't take this personal