[Verse 1]
This is what I think about when the door's closed
Room full of mirrors, I sit on the floor
Contemplating my reflection under every angle
Too many feelings I can't handle
They bounce on the wall and come back to haunt me
Don't know how I'm still smiling, this ain't even funny but believe me
After so much time spent in a room full of your flaws
It grows on you and you just get used to it
So bright outside, you can't help but notice how little you shine
Smiling much, I use my every flaws as a disguise
I came to the conclusion by being foolish on purpose
No one can tell when you self-deprecate, you're being serious
[Hook]
This is what I think about when the door's closed
Empty gold ballroom and all my demons dancing
Thunderstorm and rain pouring, can't we all dance to it
Nobody wants to come around, why put a fence to it
When the door's closed (I can see it all with clarity) x4
[Verse 2]
I feel some type of way about myself right now
My goals hang to the ceiling, and I feel the box expanding
In a way, every time I jump I miss and fall harder
You don't get credit for trying, why try at all
The mirrors converge, diverge and they distort my image
That was a metaphor for my own eyes, in case you didn't get it
Pressurizing the room with my own negative energy
Wish I could break the walls and let it all out
People won't say a thing about you until you fall out
Damn, I can see the light with the clarity
I know where I am, where I'm going, not what's in between
How can I raise my self-esteem with no make-believes?
How do they do it? Are they born with it? Is it Maybelline
Man I've got too little motivation for too many dreams
I can see what's outside, but I can't find the door knob
If I said I love myself would that make me a fraud?
[Hook]