You said "how will i go on?"
As if it's ever been my job
To tell you how you're supposed to live
You said "i hope it hurts."
Well, is that how you feel
Or is that how you think you'll learn to feel again?
So stick me in your notebook
Paint me as a fool
Annotate it, "i hope you're okay."
And i wish i had the courage
Wish i was brave enough to tell you
I'm not coming back today
But i know that i'll never tell you
I know that i won't
I know that i'll never tell you
I know that i won't
And yes, i'd like to say more
But i cannot make you listen
To these words you've so long ignored
Yell and scream
Say awful things
Call me selfish and a freak
"you've done nothing but hurt mе
Pack up and desert me
Don't comе back when you've learned to love yourself."
I wasn't planning on it
And the silence feels so heavy
I hate the thought of you still with me
And i hope you hate the thought of me too
And these words mean fu*king nothing
I just wanna feel some semblance
Of recovery from an awful time with you
I hope you know that i hated you too
But i know that i'll never tell you
I know that i won't
You won't care even if i tell you
I know that you won't