You said "how will i go on?" As if it's ever been my job To tell you how you're supposed to live You said "i hope it hurts." Well, is that how you feel Or is that how you think you'll learn to feel again? So stick me in your notebook Paint me as a fool Annotate it, "i hope you're okay." And i wish i had the courage Wish i was brave enough to tell you I'm not coming back today But i know that i'll never tell you I know that i won't I know that i'll never tell you I know that i won't And yes, i'd like to say more But i cannot make you listen To these words you've so long ignored Yell and scream Say awful things Call me selfish and a freak "you've done nothing but hurt mе Pack up and desert me Don't comе back when you've learned to love yourself." I wasn't planning on it And the silence feels so heavy I hate the thought of you still with me And i hope you hate the thought of me too And these words mean fu*king nothing I just wanna feel some semblance Of recovery from an awful time with you I hope you know that i hated you too But i know that i'll never tell you I know that i won't You won't care even if i tell you I know that you won't