5:10 am
Not who I say I am
My heart has been broken by my own battering ram
Scattered across the sky, piece by piece, part by part
I've made the stars, they are ours
They glow gleaming colors of red and carnation
The constellations are of my creation
Expressing my fixation for you
Never knew I had that in me
Hurt the one I love, casually and carefree
I just blew it off, thought "what difference does it make?"
For Christ sakes
I'm such an idiot
Watched the clock tick down to the very last minute
Reached the time limit
5:05 am
Took in all your feelings like they were nothing
f**ed you over when you were loyal and loving
But baby, believe me, I was just adjusting
Got open wounds that were left untreated
History repeated, should've confessed
Now we're both depressed
Victims of theft
Entirely emptied, even left undressed
Shared our scars, fought our fueds, we've both been a bit abused
Traveled to Mars, exited earth, I've seen all sides to you
But who I am, I can't hide any longer
Telling you this will make me shine stronger
Maybe after concluding this cycle, we'll both be intact
We're different, but baby opposites attract
What's true, you've got no clue
But I'm kneeling at your feet for forgiveness
Going to hell, I've got God as my witness
Being me is bad enough
Just end my misery
I'm insane
My brain has become corrupt,
infiltrated with some sort of sickness
The thickness of my saliva is making it hard to swallow
Pretty soon I'll choke on the thoughts that follow
The realization of no tomorrow
I'm living on borrowed time
4:59 am
Trapped in my mind, I'm a mime
The wind blows all around but my chime doesn't make a sound
We used to feel free but now we're bound
Disregarded in the lost and found
A wounded hound howling at the soon to come moon
Because the sun was sealed away in a tomb
I'm barely hanging on
You're the pro and I'm the con
You're for show and I'm a try on
Orbit around these asteroids
We sit here all year, we're unemloyed
The space between us is an everlasting void
Vastness is surpa**ing expectations
All I can ever think about is our past relation
Superior star of the solar system, yet the most alone
At last my light shone through your stone-like exterior
But when you tried to get nearer you became parched by the proximity
You erupted in flames
What a shame
Now you hide in my shadow
Never knew I was so shallow
Tired and tainted with toxicity
Throwing up the poisionous words that made me queazy
Losing you isn't easy
But it's the price I've got to pay
I learned it the hard way, nobody ever stays