I've been held up
And thought that I was tough
And I've been pulled down
And thought myself too weak to hold myself up
Just not good enough
A million failures I have dreamed of
I've seen myself
Treating others well
But I've seen myself
Hurting those I love with cruel attacks
I'm not proud of that
So many things I've said I would take back
So now starstruck and seeing double
I say goodbye, so long, and farewell
To these fatal ways of mine
I have been bold
and faced down the unknown
But I've been afraid
Of letting go of blades that I know too well
They're sickness, they're health
With them or without them I rebel
So now starstruck and seeing double
I say goodbye, so long, and farewell
To these fatal ways of mine
So now starstruck and seeing double
I'm dumbstruck always making trouble
And lock stock, bullet barrel
I'm living out a life imperiled
So nuts, bolts, brick and mortar
I'm making sense out of disorder
I just can't do it all in a day
I've seen myself
Go with grace through hell
But I've seen that I
Can fall apart without a reason to fail
To sink or to sail
To burn white hot or smolder blue and cool