Sleepwalking shadows 

Adamant decisions beyond my control

A firm grip that tightens 

Around my mind, around my soul 


Artificial veils are woven 

A bitter taste, a putrid stench of fear 

Once again, the grip it tightens

As I see myself fading away 


Save me I am drowning 

In this ocean, no emotions in me 

I feel hollow and uncertain 

I can’t see through the veil spun by needles 

I am begging won’t you free me 

because deep inside me 

there is nothing
where there once stood a mind


Imaginary friends still linger 

Shadows from a pleasant past 

I reach out my hand to touch them 

just inches away from my grasp 


Please just lead me home again 

Please don’t let her fade away 

Lay this weary mind to sleep 

As the demon lingers in the deep 


I can feel how my hands are shaking, caused by my abstinence
 

[Spoken:]
“I don’t recognize my own reflection, I don’t recognize my own actions,
Hell – I don’t even recognize my own dreams anymore!
This… medicated… drugged being… it… it isn’t who I am!â€â€¨
I can feel how my mind is breaking with every breath I take 


[Spoken:]
“I won’t swallow anymore pills and I won’t let you come near me with those f**ing needles again, you hear me?!
I won’t… I want to remember! I want to f**ing remember!†

I can feel how my soul is fading, leaving behind an empty shell 

I can feel how my heart is bleeding, knowing that it will soon be gone

I can sense my memories fading, leaving me in the bitter cold 

I can feel how I am breaking as I let the pills go down 


Please just lead me home again 

Please don’t let her fade away 

Lay this weary mind to sleep 

As the demon lingers in the deep