o, smh 'cause i forgot
o, omg this flippant world
o, time u sh**lord of lax attention
u let the dmg of me unzip & then again forget
i <3 u like the rotted apple eve was 2 grossed-out to pick
goddamn this alt unraveled truth
goddamn the moon in spring pretends
pretending to pretending to pretending to b u
h8-f**ing everyone but u has been exactly f**ed up sh**
h8-f**ing w my brain surreal against the memes of p**n & crime
h8-f**ing is an act i hope that heaven has the irl implausible
to let us one day soon indulge
o, spite o, sprite of unknown resolution
o, avatar equivocal o, sea of bone & meat & light
i <3 u like the day is long but only in the arctic & 2/3 the way thru june
only when i am 12ft inside the moon & sun
only when the big bang o, god an innuendo
o, god let there b light o, u
o, no o, god how'd i forget
o, blatant desperation
o, every lossless hip-hop track i've ever heard all played at once
u'll never understand the 50 x 10 to the 12th trill ways i can & do <3 u
i'll never comprehend the googol googled adores & awful swells
u will never understand just how the multiverse divides in-finite
diamond
when i batch capture my <3 in <3 for u
i <3 u exactly as if the earth were one echoic diadem
o, damn it really is
i <3 u like exactly that
o, damn the royal planet
o, damn forgotten pa**words
o, damn ayy lmao
o, damn check out our <3
o, god don't let me not hit save
o, god don't let me naïve this pulse
o, god do not erase these cookies from my mental browser
o, god don't let my stone <3 frack against the steel of awful time
i <3 u like obsidian black in the noon & the unnatural pureness of
rust against the salt sea in the moonlight dancing i want u truly madly
something
newly i am in <3 w the refreshed webpage of u
over & outside my acid tab of trust & contemplation i am undone &
am done i am done w/o u eerily
i am done i am done i am truly for naught
kiss me everyday
kiss me every motherf**ing day
purse ur tidal walls against my dunes & watch me wash away
kiss me until the past is present & somewhat forgot & i am 3 shrill
cries away from the dust i need u like the water & the gelatinous
ma** of infinite space & the atom & the dust again where r u
r u needing me back i am such entanglement
i am bound by gravity & brevity in my quantum <3 of u
i am inelegantly entwined w the heartache of ur charged particles
i know the pain like nothing else i can't & mustn't know
we r 2gether in the dust
we r 2gether in the storm cloud of the globular remix of the end in
retrospect
we r 2gether in the rain & ash & copper wire across both ground &
sky
we r 2gether in the light, vast, desperate unknowing & i wish in u like i
have wished in god & in man & in $ & in free wifi
but & mostly in my own will compound to nothing
compounded-in i am want of u
compounded-in i am everything in want of ur observation
look at me as i close my eyes
look at me as my eyes r closed
look at me & away again in anguish bc aw yiss we both r bound to die
look at me & see & know u have seen
& that the cosmic memory we here did not neglect to find
the one vast moment in which a thing did matter writ in matter
writ in the inexorable memory of xkeyscore
in which there was nothing but everything & us between
in which the soft shell of the taco of all time did hold its contents
steady in ur eye though all instances of guacamole do slip & fall the
f** away
check me out b4 the opacity of me reaches 0%
& the threshold of my effect bypa**es the ratio in which it can be
detected
the body mind & soul did meld & will again w us
despair renounced oblivion the instant u 1st kissed me
i am sorry i wrote this poem for u & included a painfully self-aware line
but that my longing—still 2 pained to let beauty build w/o a part apart
—required; a sheer reminder that u musn't can't & will not ever <3 me
this way back & that is fine
o, in-finite string of roses
o, renouncer of black holes' existence
o, endless quest for self-reflection
o, enveloper of worlds & of encrypted astral hues
we were born 2 close together this time
& must now fight for every moment
for we fought 4eae & won
& 4eae is an infamous sore loser
& nvr in the unique of one's existence has there been a want of
anything at all compared to my bespoken desire for 1mm cubed of the
air once held in u in me