I know it k**s you
When I act like I care about you
Then deny it
It's just better to hide what I feel
It's just better having you in the palm of my hand
You always were curious
I love that about you
But you have a small chance of finding that out
And I look at this life
Like I never have before
And I don't know what the hell I'm doing here
I know I love this girl
But if she was stabbed, would I really flinch?
Maybe it's for the best
Cause I always heard
That love is watching someone die
And I can arrange your funeral
But I always was a procrastintor
I'd get around to it eventually
I love you
But you'll never know
It's not important at the moment
I'll get around to telling you eventually
Baby you said I need therapy
And thats the first, that's the only thing we agree on
I told you I hate you
And I made fun of your hair
Then I kissed you on the cheek
I loved the look on your face
You never saw it coming
I woke up to a phone the next day
You said you had a great time
And asked me if I had anything to say
I said you looked alright last night
I feel like hating you today
Yes I know I'm complex
And hard to put up with
I hate it
Sometimes I don't care
And shouldn't you be dead by now?
It's really unfitting to be asking you
Shouldn't I tell you how I feel before you die too?
It's really unfitting to be asking you
You never see this stuff coming
Maybe if you would open your eyes for a second
You just might see
What you've been missing
Can't go blind your whole life
Or it'll only seem like no one cares
But for now...
I'll take the blame
For never giving you what you deserve
I shouldn't play around like this
I shouldn't play with your feelings
But I do it anyway
Cause I'm the captain
Of never thinking ahead
I am the captain of this
But never a captain good enough
To be your hero
I can't admit that
I can't save you
But I'll always share one thing with a man in cape
I have a secret
I couldn't admit that either
For it all to be thrown in my face
Girl you got me going soft
And I think I'm gonna burst at any moment
Any moment now
So forgive me for staying away from you
My heart just won't stop leaking
I'm so afraid I'll love you
More than you love me
I'm just not ready to tell you
Maybe I never will be
If love is watching someone die
Then I don't want to love you
It's best never to love
Then lose
I know it happens all the time
I don't think my heart can take it
If I died right now
I think I might die happy
I'd never know if you cried for me though
So will someone tell me when it's time to tell her
As soon as possible
Or before I never see her again
Is it all up to me?
I don't think I can handle it myself
I don't need a messenger
But I don't know what's best
I know no one will remind me
No one has ever known
So I guess it's one of those times
When you know it's time
Girl you got me going soft
So now I know
Before I never see you again
It's the time to say
I always loved your hair
I always loved your smile
I hate that I'll never see it again
But I could never hate you
I never felt like hating you anyday
But...
I don't love you
Cause I don't wanna lose you
I'm sorry that love is watching someone die
I really wanted things to be different
I guess I never really loved you
But I know I want to
If you didn't have to leave me
Like you promised you never would