Spilled Blood On My List Of Heartbreaks - I'm A Lot More Like Superman Than You Think lyrics

I know it k**s you When I act like I care about you Then deny it It's just better to hide what I feel It's just better having you in the palm of my hand You always were curious I love that about you But you have a small chance of finding that out And I look at this life Like I never have before And I don't know what the hell I'm doing here I know I love this girl But if she was stabbed, would I really flinch? Maybe it's for the best Cause I always heard That love is watching someone die And I can arrange your funeral But I always was a procrastintor I'd get around to it eventually I love you But you'll never know It's not important at the moment I'll get around to telling you eventually Baby you said I need therapy And thats the first, that's the only thing we agree on I told you I hate you And I made fun of your hair Then I kissed you on the cheek I loved the look on your face You never saw it coming I woke up to a phone the next day You said you had a great time And asked me if I had anything to say I said you looked alright last night I feel like hating you today Yes I know I'm complex And hard to put up with I hate it Sometimes I don't care And shouldn't you be dead by now? It's really unfitting to be asking you Shouldn't I tell you how I feel before you die too? It's really unfitting to be asking you You never see this stuff coming Maybe if you would open your eyes for a second You just might see What you've been missing Can't go blind your whole life Or it'll only seem like no one cares But for now... I'll take the blame For never giving you what you deserve I shouldn't play around like this I shouldn't play with your feelings But I do it anyway Cause I'm the captain Of never thinking ahead I am the captain of this But never a captain good enough To be your hero I can't admit that I can't save you But I'll always share one thing with a man in cape I have a secret I couldn't admit that either For it all to be thrown in my face Girl you got me going soft And I think I'm gonna burst at any moment Any moment now So forgive me for staying away from you My heart just won't stop leaking I'm so afraid I'll love you More than you love me I'm just not ready to tell you Maybe I never will be If love is watching someone die Then I don't want to love you It's best never to love Then lose I know it happens all the time I don't think my heart can take it If I died right now I think I might die happy I'd never know if you cried for me though So will someone tell me when it's time to tell her As soon as possible Or before I never see her again Is it all up to me? I don't think I can handle it myself I don't need a messenger But I don't know what's best I know no one will remind me No one has ever known So I guess it's one of those times When you know it's time Girl you got me going soft So now I know Before I never see you again It's the time to say I always loved your hair I always loved your smile I hate that I'll never see it again But I could never hate you I never felt like hating you anyday But... I don't love you Cause I don't wanna lose you I'm sorry that love is watching someone die I really wanted things to be different I guess I never really loved you But I know I want to If you didn't have to leave me Like you promised you never would