Eye drop into my dream on the bed
Restrained at the arms I saw box mountain queen, the first ghost that I'd meet, lifted
Dad's thumb has shattered and bled
The first ghost I'd ever left dead
Mom's breathy singing was all I had going but I felt protected and ready
To turn up the volume already
I pushed it too far she yelled at me
I spun on the chair and felt Valerie's squeal and fell happy
Ah I don't mind a thing
I'll let you walk the ledge to the park
And watch you chase the pigeons with Kobi
I wear my hair gold like in old pictures
I can smile on a bench where peace knows me
She comes with kids of her own and they look just like me
And I always dreamed of jumping the fence
With a start from the swings I'd whip out my wings at last
On my back I imagine a balance beam act
Like walking the jetty and keep your ankles steady Anne
Don't slip inside a crevice
But I want your head in the clouds it's
Been too long since looking
I can hold your hand (and guide you) while you see it
I'd carry you to your father
And I'd carry you over water
I'd rub your back ‘til you're warm
And then I'd let you fall asleep on my shoulder
Eye drop into my dream on the bed
Restrained at the arms
I see a history quick (get up, ready, set, kid)
My memories aren't mine they're just stories I know
And I'm far from my crib (not even a video clip)
I'm not who I once was, I'm a body that carries
The ghosts of its souls (and one of its own)
There are so many things I'm afraid to give up
But in that past I let go (I was too young to drive so…)
Now Mom's breathy singing would shelter my growth
But I felt protected and ready
To get on the bus already
I never looked back, she keeps yelling (but I wonder, did she yell for me?)
Is it because now that I'm on the bus out she keeps thinking he can't hear me?