Sonoak - Pigeon Chaser lyrics

Eye drop into my dream on the bed Restrained at the arms I saw box mountain queen, the first ghost that I'd meet, lifted Dad's thumb has shattered and bled The first ghost I'd ever left dead Mom's breathy singing was all I had going but I felt protected and ready To turn up the volume already I pushed it too far she yelled at me I spun on the chair and felt Valerie's squeal and fell happy Ah I don't mind a thing I'll let you walk the ledge to the park And watch you chase the pigeons with Kobi I wear my hair gold like in old pictures I can smile on a bench where peace knows me She comes with kids of her own and they look just like me And I always dreamed of jumping the fence With a start from the swings I'd whip out my wings at last On my back I imagine a balance beam act Like walking the jetty and keep your ankles steady Anne Don't slip inside a crevice But I want your head in the clouds it's Been too long since looking I can hold your hand (and guide you) while you see it I'd carry you to your father And I'd carry you over water I'd rub your back ‘til you're warm And then I'd let you fall asleep on my shoulder Eye drop into my dream on the bed Restrained at the arms I see a history quick (get up, ready, set, kid) My memories aren't mine they're just stories I know And I'm far from my crib (not even a video clip) I'm not who I once was, I'm a body that carries The ghosts of its souls (and one of its own) There are so many things I'm afraid to give up But in that past I let go (I was too young to drive so…) Now Mom's breathy singing would shelter my growth But I felt protected and ready To get on the bus already I never looked back, she keeps yelling (but I wonder, did she yell for me?) Is it because now that I'm on the bus out she keeps thinking he can't hear me?