Look at the stars and imagine your wildest dreams
Mama told me nothing's really how it looks up on the screen
Daddy told me...
Wait, nah, he ain't say sh**
So Ima make sure that my family gets way more than my two cents
And Ima work so that my team
Can take a breather on the bench
Coaches never used to listen to me
Prolly why we didn't win
My history so distant from me
Feels like I forgot it all
I used to have a bigger tummy
Then I learned just how to ball
Remember Kings Plaza?
Used to be up inside the mall
Catch a movie, thank you mama
What's the occasion? Mazel Tov
You made it
A celebration for giving your all
I wasn't really trying hard
I just knew how to solve
But they thought it was special
So they had to get involved
They sent me all around the city
Bus and train, no cars
Just to better my mental
I just wanted some kitty
But my youth was detrimental to the cause
I saw the fast life, and I stood in awe
Rightfully so, the sh** was full of bars
Bars for drinking, spittin and caging
Think I chose the right ones so far
And I been blowing up my lungs so far
And I been acting pretty young so far
But I'm an old soul
I think I ran the first Rose Bowl
49 and 0
And I'm still sh**ting like that wasn't bout
100+ years ago
I came I saw and conquered
Then I switched up the flow
Like ini mini miney mo
Who tryna get it we can go?
Shoot the fair one, and when you lose step out the door
And when you lose step out the door
They say the sky's the limit...
I guess it's over now
I didn't think that I was finished
But my heart is colder now
Can't even spit the sh** I wrote about you over break
And when I look inside the mirror I just hope it breaks
Can't even start to fathom
What a toll this sh** will take
I feel as if I lost it all
We really should've pushed the brakes in fall
But now it's winter
It's like that little splinter of doubt
Became a crater
Should've crushed that damn placenta and the fetus too
But damn it grew up and I'm still gon have to k** it ooh
But I'm afraid of blood and boys in blue
And if I catch another body
You would not approve
But f** your feelings
You done lost your choice
Used to be warm but I got frosted voice
My team done lost so much this year we some exhausted boys
I swear I wrote this out of fear
Cuz I still love you but I know you leaving
And damn I might just quit the game cuz I'm so out of season
And why'd I have to do you wrong?
Don't really have a reason
I thought that it was self-defense
Honestly it was treason
You did nothing but treat me right
And I just proved us wrong
And when the f** did this verse go become a damn love song
Swear I belong in a hearse
Might just go lay in one
Cuz I don't know no one named Stephen
But I'm Stephen's son?
I just wanted to do it big
Was tryna have some fun
I think I tried to give a taste of your own medicine
But that sh** just wasn't the same
I played my cards wrong
Now I'm just sitting in the pain
On this cold hard lawn
I didn't think that it would hit just like it did
And nikkie told me get your life together kid
And who got d** to sell me
I can't take this feeling sh**
I'm bout to overdose
Cuz comatose will take the feeling quick
So close to ending it
I asked a couple times if we could still be friends and sh**
But deep inside know I don't want that
It's dark outside and I just want my sun back
The moons will fade away
Just like the tat you want on your back
But your rays forever stay inside my vision
The way you radiate will always have a n***a tripping
You know that I don't give a f** about these women
I'm demented
And I don't deserve you
And all the sh** I did was truly hurtful
And baby girl you hurt me too
But now my hands are turning purple
Skin is turning blue
I shouldn't be out here this long
But I got sh** to prove
Feel like we going back to middle school
But switchin roles
This life will prolly hand me strippers on the stripper poles
But just like them
I'm working for a couple goals
I want your heart
I want your soul
I'm tryna keep you warm like moccasins against your soles
I wanna see you smiling
As we travel round the globe
And then we'll settle in the islands on that place you call your home
I'm tryna take the L
But that don't mean I'm losing
I'm rolling down a rocky path
But one day I'll be cruising
Cuz me without you
Do the math
It's equal to confusion
I'm tryna take the L
But that don't mean I'm gon be losing