So4p - Take the L lyrics

Look at the stars and imagine your wildest dreams Mama told me nothing's really how it looks up on the screen Daddy told me... Wait, nah, he ain't say sh** So Ima make sure that my family gets way more than my two cents And Ima work so that my team Can take a breather on the bench Coaches never used to listen to me Prolly why we didn't win My history so distant from me Feels like I forgot it all I used to have a bigger tummy Then I learned just how to ball Remember Kings Plaza? Used to be up inside the mall Catch a movie, thank you mama What's the occasion? Mazel Tov You made it A celebration for giving your all I wasn't really trying hard I just knew how to solve But they thought it was special So they had to get involved They sent me all around the city Bus and train, no cars Just to better my mental I just wanted some kitty But my youth was detrimental to the cause I saw the fast life, and I stood in awe Rightfully so, the sh** was full of bars Bars for drinking, spittin and caging Think I chose the right ones so far And I been blowing up my lungs so far And I been acting pretty young so far But I'm an old soul I think I ran the first Rose Bowl 49 and 0 And I'm still sh**ting like that wasn't bout 100+ years ago I came I saw and conquered Then I switched up the flow Like ini mini miney mo Who tryna get it we can go? Shoot the fair one, and when you lose step out the door And when you lose step out the door They say the sky's the limit... I guess it's over now I didn't think that I was finished But my heart is colder now Can't even spit the sh** I wrote about you over break And when I look inside the mirror I just hope it breaks Can't even start to fathom What a toll this sh** will take I feel as if I lost it all We really should've pushed the brakes in fall But now it's winter It's like that little splinter of doubt Became a crater Should've crushed that damn placenta and the fetus too But damn it grew up and I'm still gon have to k** it ooh But I'm afraid of blood and boys in blue And if I catch another body You would not approve But f** your feelings You done lost your choice Used to be warm but I got frosted voice My team done lost so much this year we some exhausted boys I swear I wrote this out of fear Cuz I still love you but I know you leaving And damn I might just quit the game cuz I'm so out of season And why'd I have to do you wrong? Don't really have a reason I thought that it was self-defense Honestly it was treason You did nothing but treat me right And I just proved us wrong And when the f** did this verse go become a damn love song Swear I belong in a hearse Might just go lay in one Cuz I don't know no one named Stephen But I'm Stephen's son? I just wanted to do it big Was tryna have some fun I think I tried to give a taste of your own medicine But that sh** just wasn't the same I played my cards wrong Now I'm just sitting in the pain On this cold hard lawn I didn't think that it would hit just like it did And nikkie told me get your life together kid And who got d** to sell me I can't take this feeling sh** I'm bout to overdose Cuz comatose will take the feeling quick So close to ending it I asked a couple times if we could still be friends and sh** But deep inside know I don't want that It's dark outside and I just want my sun back The moons will fade away Just like the tat you want on your back But your rays forever stay inside my vision The way you radiate will always have a n***a tripping You know that I don't give a f** about these women I'm demented And I don't deserve you And all the sh** I did was truly hurtful And baby girl you hurt me too But now my hands are turning purple Skin is turning blue I shouldn't be out here this long But I got sh** to prove Feel like we going back to middle school But switchin roles This life will prolly hand me strippers on the stripper poles But just like them I'm working for a couple goals I want your heart I want your soul I'm tryna keep you warm like moccasins against your soles I wanna see you smiling As we travel round the globe And then we'll settle in the islands on that place you call your home I'm tryna take the L But that don't mean I'm losing I'm rolling down a rocky path But one day I'll be cruising Cuz me without you Do the math It's equal to confusion I'm tryna take the L But that don't mean I'm gon be losing