Soon I'll be torn apart
And you'll finally see what's inside
I'm sad to say there's nothing left but pitiful pride
Living two lives leaves no time for sleep
I'm burning alive; it burns so deep
What a beautiful demise I've become
I can't count on coal and clay to build me up
I'm blind to the effects of my drug
I made a coffin and called it a bed
Maybe I'll finally sleep when I'm dead
I've searched for an answer
My hands were shaking
My mind was racing
My body had grown numb
Because my soul had grown to cold to touch
Maybe one day you'll come back
And light my flame
(Drown myself again)
I swear I won't burn out
Never again, never again
Maybe one day you'll come back
And light my flame
(Drown myself again)
I promised but I
Have my doubts, I have my doubts
(In self sabotage)
When I finally realized my worth
I had lead for feet
I didn't belong on this earth
But fate is bitter sweet
I wish that I had pa**ed that night
The embers inside kept me alive
Choking back on memories
I lost myself I can't catch my breath
My regrets dragged me inches from d**h
I would have taken others with me
But I wouldn't care
Because my soul is dark and dim as coal
I was never aware
But now I'm alive
I was never there
On the outside
I don't care
I'm dead inside
Where are you
Where the f** were you?
Am I a lost soul
God can you spare me the silence?
I don't know what happened that night
But it gave me new sight
Being so close to d**h was humbling
Maybe one day you'll come back
And light my flame
(Drown myself again)
I swear I won't burn out
Never again, never again
Maybe one day you'll come back
And light my flame
(Drown myself again)
I promised but I
Have my doubts, I have my doubts
(In self sabotage)