[Verse 1]
At times, the signs point to life bein' one big setback
Bet that
For every step forward I take a couple steps back
Life sets traps for me
Or so it seems I persistently fall into holes
Instead of achieving my dreams
Seein' as since my teens been on this path of self-destruction
Seemed to be the best choice
I couldn't manage the construction, of a life plan
That didn't involve bringin' myself down
And any fight I got into
Resulted in a poundin'
The sound can be as loud and abrasive as violence
Still I lay at rock bottom surrounded by silence
No sobbin' or cryin', cuz I'm use to this location
Comfortable just lookin' up, it seems I have no patience
Nor the ambition for me to complete this damn mission
And get myself up outta this pit that I've been diggin'
But sh**, I keep on swiggin' on this liquor like it's nourishment
Smoke so much green, folks think that I'm a
Amsterdam tourist
I can't flourish in this environment
Work a 9-5 for 40 some odd years then hit retirement
Wonderin' what happened to the goals that I made
The girls I laid
It feels like I've worked my whole life
Still haven't got paid
But that'll never be me
And if you ever see me
In that dimension chances are that I'm in need of intervention
I'd be on the verge of callin' this existence quits
If this is it, then f** it
Why would I live with this sh**?
When I could just end it all in an instant
Pop 40 X wait for my problems to start driftin'
Lay back, watch my vital signs become non-existent
Wishin' I would've performed all this sh** I had intended
But I failed to mention my intentions are righteous
Depressin' ya, ain't the aim or reason I write this
The impression I leave, is just to set you free
And if not you it did it for me now I can breathe like …
[Chorus]
Hell hath no fury than that of a life's scorn
My halo wouldn't be much, without my horns
Adorn them both, use each when the time is proper
Attempt to circumvent, but we weren't meant to prosper for forever…
[Verse 2]
I cracked a smile and asked the devil
What you cryin' for? He said
I dunno man, what the f** you tryin' for?
And I had to admit, I don't give a sh**
But probably the same thing these politicians always lyin' for
What I'm defiant for
I smile when I kick down giants for
What the no crown lion, stole the sword of Orion
And cut heads off leviathan for, yeah
Cuz I have been poor sin my conception
Exercise discretion
But the violence is core
When compliance is more
Science than fiction the highest conviction is
Raise fist and take tyrants to war
I swore to be an eye sore
In the eyes of the storm
This life b**h is such a nihilist who*e
She'll f** ya
Over and under, any angle you wanna
Just to show you what your dyin' is for
So my lord;
Wake me up just a little later alright?
I ain't had a restful sleep in a fortnight
Mind ain't wrestling demons
It's more like
Seasons I've spent huntin' beasts by the torch light
And I don't mean to sound depressed but I
Have seen things go south in the best of times
So if you're gonna just spend it stressin', fine
Waste yours muthaf**a, I'm investin' mine
In some kind of happiness
Fake or a lie, it don't matter to me
Life's just a shake of the die anyway
Hell, any day could be your last goodbye
So I live like love's the only way to survive
I couldn't give 5 f** about their planes of their spies
Cuz this life gives us what it takes to survive
I saw the j**el net of Indra
Made up my mind, sh**
I'mma live this damn dream ‘til I wake up and…die