[Verse 1 – Sik World]
I gotta be real with myself
I wasn’t being real to myself
I still have scars that run deep and I haven’t spent any time healing myself
No one around could, feel what I felt
I felt stuck in painting fear in myself
I’m still gonna burn out steaming in hell
God, acting like I’m not screaming for help
I, gotta get up
I can feel it in my gut I wanna give up
I can’t trust anyone cos everyone switch up
I can’t love anyone cos everyone slip up
It’s just me, don’t got anyone I can hit up
All I tried was to see stadiums fill up
Because of me every light inner gets lit up
Changing the world through every lyric I spit up
But until I, change it within me I can never change it
I turned fake, I got the balls to say it
I was riding waves, tryna get famous
A million places where my name is
Now I hate the stress that it all came with
My anxiety’s high and its mad dangerous
I lost my girl, I can never save us
Being honest with yourself is the hardest favour
It’s okay to admit when you’re wrong and your fake
It’s okay to lose yourself when you make mistake
It’s okay to lose faith after a heart break
I can’t say I’m perfect if I did I was lying to your face
I’m a liar, and I lie everyday
I act like I’m fine but I ain’t
Inside I’m dying and I pray, cos I’m only human, yeah
What more can I say? Damn
[Chorus – Sik World & Alex Marie Brinkley]
I feel like I found me but I’m lost again, oh oh oh
I felt like I could do it without a friend, oh
I’m a liar, to myself
I’m a liar, to myself
[Verse 2 Sik World]
I gotta be real with myself
I wasn’t being real to myself
I still have scars that run deep and I haven’t spent any time healing myself
No one around could, feel what I felt
I felt stuck in painting fear in myself
I’m still gonna burn out steaming in hell
God, acting like I’m not screaming for help
I, gotta learn to
Accept the fact that there’s no one to turn to
Accept the fact that the flame we had burnt through
I f**ed up bad, knowing that I don’t deserve you
So many problems that we could’ve sat and worked through
Wishin’ that I wasn’t the one that had’ve hurt you
So blind to that I didn’t see that from your view
And now I’m stuck with pictures that I sit and search through
And I heard you, moved on, and that it was my fault
I’m sick of all the damage that I caused
So sick of fricking living inside of my thoughts
I’m blind to what I have and only see what I’ve lost
And I thought, if I blew up, I would be happy
Well I’m not! So don’t even ask me
If it looks like I am then I’m probably just acting
Cos life is a movie, mine looks like a sad scene
I’m lying to myself when I say I believe
The truth is I didn’t even see it in me
I would only rhyme if I was feeling a beat
When I should just be filling in me
And rap’s hobbies and its hilling to me
I had nobody when I needed to speak
Hated my life and it don’t mean it to me
I’m still dealing with these demons in me
Thought I was found but the real me needed to leave, cos
[Chorus – Sik World & Alex Marie Brinkley]
I feel like I found me but I’m lost again, oh oh oh
I felt like I could do it without a friend, oh
I’m a liar, to myself
I’m a liar, to myself