[Intro]
Yeah
Sometimes you get to the highest point of your life
Where you feel like you're on top of the world
And sometimes you just get to the bottoms of the bottoms
You know, so
Seems like at that moment you can't get out and stuff
Sometimes you gotta talk about it
So, listen:
[Verse 1]
I know what's going on
I know what's going on
Trying to find a reason that you right
Knowing that you wrong
Trying to tell me it's ok
Blood stains on the arm
The pain of swinging thinking I'm hitting the points of life
That been added on
That's been stressing me
But blessing me with how much I can take
I already know the war is on
And my side is more than shields
And all of them guns
It's the power that's united and it's been given to one
And that's me
A one man army, looking to my sides
I see no one sadly
They say they love me, words are LIES
Words are really nothing
Especially if you can't show it
I'm lost, I'm in a daze
She's blaming me for my old ways
And I told her this is over
That bullsh** is over
And I'm sippin', but I'm not trippin'
When I say I'm fully sober
Every day I'm getting older
The world is seeming colder
Every time I talk about it
It take the weight off my shoulders
And I feel I'm going crazy
Trying to maintain composure
Because I didn't have to know her
All the feelings that I showed her
The times I got to hold her
Love notes in the folder
I'm dying to expose her
But really it ain't even worth it
Was it worth it
Was it worth it
The scenario is perfect
I trust nobody
But God Almighty
And I know that he like me
Because I'm different from society
But the women in it depriving me
Devils in disguise, they eyeing me
Friends lying to me, they trying to see
How much I can f**ing take
Every day my heart breaks
Because I know that if I died
Nobody would miss me
People I know are quick to diss me
I wish I was young again
When it was back to Walt Disney
When my life was so fun
With any worries
Me and my mom would go to church
In hopes that we would find that glory
And unreveal? all the trouble
That's in this life story
Sorry that my feelings pouring
The community find it boring
I'm just lost I really am
I can't captivate it
I really can't understand
How I think if I made it, the bullsh** would really end
Contemplating on who's really my friend
I'm so lost I don't even know where to begin
Apparently I'm just another
Typical, unoriginal, unemotional
Promotional artist that's farthest from stardom
And I am just a youtube artist with good songs
But sound retarded
With an image you could tarnish
Overall my flow is garbage
Maybe I should apply for college
And obtain the knowledge
That can land me in a career
That actually profits
Be successful
Have a wife and have a son named Thomas
A nice house, 2 car garage
With a white picket fence around it
Maybe give in to the clowning
Quit leaving my fans astounded
Delete my fan page, my twitter
And all the people on it
And no more fans arguing
That seems like a bargain
And I'mma do it to prove it
This is the end of my story
Nahhh
See I ain't really with it
They just see you at the bottom
And get happy when you quitin'
I'm the best that ever did it
In my mindset I am winnin'
I'mma be the first to start it
I'mma get the first to finish
I grew up a lot
Not saying that I'm different
But I see more than the normal human given vision
I see things past the sight that the lord has intended
And nobody at 18
Has seen what I been in
Uh
I'm seperated from this society
And I keep suffering from this anxiety
Tell me to be strong
The pain will let up
And I be staying strong when life says
You gotta give up
You gotta be strong
The road is very long that you walking on
You might lose dear people you brought along
You might even fall
You might even trip
But you gotta stand up to man up to smile at the end
[Outro]