[Intro] Yeah Sometimes you get to the highest point of your life Where you feel like you're on top of the world And sometimes you just get to the bottoms of the bottoms You know, so Seems like at that moment you can't get out and stuff Sometimes you gotta talk about it So, listen: [Verse 1] I know what's going on I know what's going on Trying to find a reason that you right Knowing that you wrong Trying to tell me it's ok Blood stains on the arm The pain of swinging thinking I'm hitting the points of life That been added on That's been stressing me But blessing me with how much I can take I already know the war is on And my side is more than shields And all of them guns It's the power that's united and it's been given to one And that's me A one man army, looking to my sides I see no one sadly They say they love me, words are LIES Words are really nothing Especially if you can't show it I'm lost, I'm in a daze She's blaming me for my old ways And I told her this is over That bullsh** is over And I'm sippin', but I'm not trippin' When I say I'm fully sober Every day I'm getting older The world is seeming colder Every time I talk about it It take the weight off my shoulders And I feel I'm going crazy Trying to maintain composure Because I didn't have to know her All the feelings that I showed her The times I got to hold her Love notes in the folder I'm dying to expose her But really it ain't even worth it Was it worth it Was it worth it The scenario is perfect I trust nobody But God Almighty And I know that he like me Because I'm different from society But the women in it depriving me Devils in disguise, they eyeing me Friends lying to me, they trying to see How much I can f**ing take Every day my heart breaks Because I know that if I died Nobody would miss me People I know are quick to diss me I wish I was young again When it was back to Walt Disney When my life was so fun With any worries Me and my mom would go to church In hopes that we would find that glory And unreveal? all the trouble That's in this life story Sorry that my feelings pouring The community find it boring I'm just lost I really am I can't captivate it I really can't understand How I think if I made it, the bullsh** would really end Contemplating on who's really my friend I'm so lost I don't even know where to begin Apparently I'm just another Typical, unoriginal, unemotional Promotional artist that's farthest from stardom And I am just a youtube artist with good songs But sound retarded With an image you could tarnish Overall my flow is garbage Maybe I should apply for college And obtain the knowledge That can land me in a career That actually profits Be successful Have a wife and have a son named Thomas A nice house, 2 car garage With a white picket fence around it Maybe give in to the clowning Quit leaving my fans astounded Delete my fan page, my twitter And all the people on it And no more fans arguing That seems like a bargain And I'mma do it to prove it This is the end of my story Nahhh See I ain't really with it They just see you at the bottom And get happy when you quitin' I'm the best that ever did it In my mindset I am winnin' I'mma be the first to start it I'mma get the first to finish I grew up a lot Not saying that I'm different But I see more than the normal human given vision I see things past the sight that the lord has intended And nobody at 18 Has seen what I been in Uh I'm seperated from this society And I keep suffering from this anxiety Tell me to be strong The pain will let up And I be staying strong when life says You gotta give up You gotta be strong The road is very long that you walking on You might lose dear people you brought along You might even fall You might even trip But you gotta stand up to man up to smile at the end [Outro]