on the phone
my father tells me
he's been thinking
and that when i was little
i refused to poop
the doctors said
it was some form
of separation anxiety;
they said
i was scared
to lose a part of myself
they had to hold me down
and force a stream of water
up my a**
i would pa** out immediately,
my dad tells me,
usually, i'd still be in the tub
he thought of this
because i recently asked him
if he could think of anything
that i may have repressed
and here i've been telling ex-boyfriends
that it was only an episode
of x-files