on the phone my father tells me he's been thinking and that when i was little i refused to poop the doctors said it was some form of separation anxiety; they said i was scared to lose a part of myself they had to hold me down and force a stream of water up my a** i would pa** out immediately, my dad tells me, usually, i'd still be in the tub he thought of this because i recently asked him if he could think of anything that i may have repressed and here i've been telling ex-boyfriends that it was only an episode of x-files