[Verse One]:
You probably think I had a choice
But rap chose me ever since I had a voice
Even though my family always thought that it was noise
You was right there, said my music made you moist
Huh
But now look
I don't call, I don't write, I might send you a text
To say, "Hey I'm alright. I heard you back with your ex
Y'all just havin' s**. Well damn, that's even worse
Well at least he treat you right, the most I did write a verse
About your style and your wit and your smile and forget it
I was over, but now I'm hopin' I could call or see the crib or somethin'
I know you still love me, you buggin'
You think you, havin' this kid, I thought you was just f**in'
Damn
See, I was tryin' to turn this nothin' into somethin' big
I did it for us
You thought I wasn't comin' back. Girl please, half a year I was gone
But now I here. This is where I belong
Stop playin' with me."
[Chorus]:
I said I care for you but I can't be there for you
All I did was want money, what the hell you want from me?
You see my life is rap, I told you I'd be back
I know I did you wrong, that's why I did this song
[Verse Two]:
You know I couldn't leave rap alone, the game needed me
You wanted me to come back home, it wasn't easy see
They want me to payback loans, callin' repeatedly
I want to start a life of our own, the way you treated me
Was crazy cause I told you once the deal went through
That my life would get wild and I revealed that truth
We went from talkin' everyday to two-waying at night
To two weeks with no speech and then we would fight
And I'm tryin' to tell you how all the little kids is knowin'
Who I am and I don't know him but I feel like I owe him
My song is rotation and you don't care cause you hopin' that I quit
And I lay up with you
You see my focus and how long I've been strugglin', I've worked so hard
To become one of the best, you want me under your breast
But what about all the rest of the people that miss B.I.G
While I'm tryin' to rep 'em you pregnant and gettin' big
That's f**ed up
[Chorus]:
I said I care for you but I can't be there for you
All I did was want money, what the hell you want from me?
You see my life is rap, I told you I'd be back
I know I did you wrong, that's why I did this song
See where ever you at, where ever you are
I wanna come back girl, I know that it's hard
See where ever you at, where ever you are
I wanna be near, I know I've been far
See where ever you at, where ever you are
I wanna come back girl, I know that it's hard
See where ever you at, where ever you are
I wanna be near, I know I've been far
[Verse Three]:
See I'm sorry, I know I'm a jerk cause I chose to go hard
For the fame, for the love of the dough
While you wanna catch a movie I'm preparin' for a show
And you never understood, but I just couldn't let you go
I ain't take you out for birthdays, nothin' but Christmas's
Or Valentine's and now I'm suppose to come to your christening?
I had the time to sleep with you, but you was sleepin'
I was listening to beats, it make me feel like I was cheatin'
I'm upset cause I let you go run with the next dude
And now it's affectin' my work cause I'm stressed
So I hope that you happy
But when you see me gettin' dough, don't get at me
I'm so real girl