[Verse One]: You probably think I had a choice But rap chose me ever since I had a voice Even though my family always thought that it was noise You was right there, said my music made you moist Huh But now look I don't call, I don't write, I might send you a text To say, "Hey I'm alright. I heard you back with your ex Y'all just havin' s**. Well damn, that's even worse Well at least he treat you right, the most I did write a verse About your style and your wit and your smile and forget it I was over, but now I'm hopin' I could call or see the crib or somethin' I know you still love me, you buggin' You think you, havin' this kid, I thought you was just f**in' Damn See, I was tryin' to turn this nothin' into somethin' big I did it for us You thought I wasn't comin' back. Girl please, half a year I was gone But now I here. This is where I belong Stop playin' with me." [Chorus]: I said I care for you but I can't be there for you All I did was want money, what the hell you want from me? You see my life is rap, I told you I'd be back I know I did you wrong, that's why I did this song [Verse Two]: You know I couldn't leave rap alone, the game needed me You wanted me to come back home, it wasn't easy see They want me to payback loans, callin' repeatedly I want to start a life of our own, the way you treated me Was crazy cause I told you once the deal went through That my life would get wild and I revealed that truth We went from talkin' everyday to two-waying at night To two weeks with no speech and then we would fight And I'm tryin' to tell you how all the little kids is knowin' Who I am and I don't know him but I feel like I owe him My song is rotation and you don't care cause you hopin' that I quit And I lay up with you You see my focus and how long I've been strugglin', I've worked so hard To become one of the best, you want me under your breast But what about all the rest of the people that miss B.I.G While I'm tryin' to rep 'em you pregnant and gettin' big That's f**ed up [Chorus]: I said I care for you but I can't be there for you All I did was want money, what the hell you want from me? You see my life is rap, I told you I'd be back I know I did you wrong, that's why I did this song See where ever you at, where ever you are I wanna come back girl, I know that it's hard See where ever you at, where ever you are I wanna be near, I know I've been far See where ever you at, where ever you are I wanna come back girl, I know that it's hard See where ever you at, where ever you are I wanna be near, I know I've been far [Verse Three]: See I'm sorry, I know I'm a jerk cause I chose to go hard For the fame, for the love of the dough While you wanna catch a movie I'm preparin' for a show And you never understood, but I just couldn't let you go I ain't take you out for birthdays, nothin' but Christmas's Or Valentine's and now I'm suppose to come to your christening? I had the time to sleep with you, but you was sleepin' I was listening to beats, it make me feel like I was cheatin' I'm upset cause I let you go run with the next dude And now it's affectin' my work cause I'm stressed So I hope that you happy But when you see me gettin' dough, don't get at me I'm so real girl