Sleeping for half the day
Waking up in a haze
The last year has been that way
Wasted time that I'll never replace
I just want to wake up to myself
I tried so hard but I couldn't change
The pressure was making me sick
I can see where I went wrong
But I've been on this path for so long, so long now
Still searching for substance
If only I knew what I wanted
I'm so indecisive (I'm so indecisive)
When it comes to making up my mind
I want to bury myself so I can sleep at night
Some call me cynical but life has never been that bright
Temptation is calling me towards the light
But I'm not going anywhere without a fight
I just hope that there's truth in the words I write
I tried so hard but I couldn't change
The pressure was making me sick
I can see where I went wrong
But I've been on this path for so long, so long now
My life stopped but the world kept spinning around me
While I did nothing
I've been beating myself up
'Cause no one would say
You're life's a f**ing joke but you'll be okay
The fact of the matter is I'm a disgrace
Just a 20 year old waste of space
Brace yourself for the tidal wave
I'll fill your head with negativity
What's so good about being me?
What's so wrong about being afraid?
I've been holding my breath for so long
Where do you turn when you don't have anything anymore?
I've been holding my breath for so long
But I don't know how much longer I can hold on