Set The Score - Waste lyrics

Sleeping for half the day Waking up in a haze The last year has been that way Wasted time that I'll never replace I just want to wake up to myself I tried so hard but I couldn't change The pressure was making me sick I can see where I went wrong But I've been on this path for so long, so long now Still searching for substance If only I knew what I wanted I'm so indecisive (I'm so indecisive) When it comes to making up my mind I want to bury myself so I can sleep at night Some call me cynical but life has never been that bright Temptation is calling me towards the light But I'm not going anywhere without a fight I just hope that there's truth in the words I write I tried so hard but I couldn't change The pressure was making me sick I can see where I went wrong But I've been on this path for so long, so long now My life stopped but the world kept spinning around me While I did nothing I've been beating myself up 'Cause no one would say You're life's a f**ing joke but you'll be okay The fact of the matter is I'm a disgrace Just a 20 year old waste of space Brace yourself for the tidal wave I'll fill your head with negativity What's so good about being me? What's so wrong about being afraid? I've been holding my breath for so long Where do you turn when you don't have anything anymore? I've been holding my breath for so long But I don't know how much longer I can hold on