Find the focus
Find the focus and make it yours
Relating to a past that I could never track
Like a wolf, I am Okami, and I can't fall back
To the backdrop that is the Garden of Eden
It's on movies, it's on TV
It's everywhere but the end
My friends all reading anime
Or having a smoke
While I'm trying counting calories
With three diet cokes
And the moment didn't come till the next day I awoke
And I found myself feeling like my life was a joke
But the counting didn't work cos I'm still one-sixty-something
When I look at myself in the mirror, I feel nothing
I feel nothing
When I look at myself in the mirror, I feel nothing
I am counting on a past that I could never ask for
They say kids want structure
There's nothing that I want more than than to be told
"Son, what are you waiting for?"
You've got the look, you've got the art
Let's settle the score
My friends wanna be mad at me
Because I'm alone
And the fact that I keep rapping
Into my Mac for no one to hear it
Because I'm taking the chances and I keep
Kissing their a**es but no one asks what I'm doing
So I keep writing them pa**es
And the hallways are not welcoming
And the smiles are seldom
So when I see their blank faces
All I wanna do is tell them
Trying to write like I was born to do something
I knew if they saw me, they'd know I feel nothing
I feel nothing
I knew if they saw me they'd know I feel nothing
I feel the patience in my brain cells running thin
Cos I'm scared out of my mind I'll let the wrong one in
To my secrets and my dreams and my hopes and my pleasures
So I hide myself away and take drastic measures to find myself
A place where I can feel safe, and that's my mom or my dog
Or my bed or a straight jacket
A straight jacket
There's something so right
About the safety of a straight jacket
Find the focus
Find the focus and make it yours
Find the focus
Find the focus
Find the focus and make it yours