Sela - Spaceouttt lyrics

Find the focus Find the focus and make it yours Relating to a past that I could never track Like a wolf, I am Okami, and I can't fall back To the backdrop that is the Garden of Eden It's on movies, it's on TV It's everywhere but the end My friends all reading anime Or having a smoke While I'm trying counting calories With three diet cokes And the moment didn't come till the next day I awoke And I found myself feeling like my life was a joke But the counting didn't work cos I'm still one-sixty-something When I look at myself in the mirror, I feel nothing I feel nothing When I look at myself in the mirror, I feel nothing I am counting on a past that I could never ask for They say kids want structure There's nothing that I want more than than to be told "Son, what are you waiting for?" You've got the look, you've got the art Let's settle the score My friends wanna be mad at me Because I'm alone And the fact that I keep rapping Into my Mac for no one to hear it Because I'm taking the chances and I keep Kissing their a**es but no one asks what I'm doing So I keep writing them pa**es And the hallways are not welcoming And the smiles are seldom So when I see their blank faces All I wanna do is tell them Trying to write like I was born to do something I knew if they saw me, they'd know I feel nothing I feel nothing I knew if they saw me they'd know I feel nothing I feel the patience in my brain cells running thin Cos I'm scared out of my mind I'll let the wrong one in To my secrets and my dreams and my hopes and my pleasures So I hide myself away and take drastic measures to find myself A place where I can feel safe, and that's my mom or my dog Or my bed or a straight jacket A straight jacket There's something so right About the safety of a straight jacket Find the focus Find the focus and make it yours Find the focus Find the focus Find the focus and make it yours