I waste away like I'm in shreds now, underneath of the Red Cloud
Hanging on by a thread now, barely get out of bed
This isn't me to sell my soul out just land milk and honey
My days ain't sunny, slave away to make another man's money
And now it's just this misery, because everybody's sick of me
Because everybody loves their lives, and none of this means sh** to me
Don't know how long that I can stay, I want to take this pain away
Amazing that a little ray of sun can get them through their days
I can't pick up my spirits with prayer, p**y gets old to a player
Liquor got an array of and writing taking my day up
Lightning outside as I lay up, liquor, lightning and prayers
With all my words on their way up, I'd join them if I could pay up
They can't understand I'm damned and that it drags on a man
That I don't plan to f** the ties up that I have but I'm mad
Maybe one day I'll wake up shining in the light that I crave
And I'll be brave another day, but I can never be saved
Because I live under the red cloud devil in my head
I'm just a rebel and the weather always red
f** forgiveness for my wickedness, the Red Cloud has witnessed it
Stuck with burdens of my badness, roll with sadness like
Sisyphus
That means liquor over rocks and then I'm chasing a spliff with this
Maybe I can't get a first date, because I just want to get a fifth
Away with your amazing life, pour mine over a maze of ice
So maybe I can see myself through glaze and I won't hate the sight
Annihilate my mind and lie awake at night
I never entered yours but then you're violating mine while I await the light
It's always tainted red like the rain that's dripping on my head
Looking for a saint but all I find is sinners in my bed
All the while, the room is spinning, windows tinted crimson red
I've gone to hell I see this by the path of cinders I was led
All the while I bled so the path I took here is tainted red
Painted red like the lips on the last one that gave me head
No one would take me as I was, with this cloud hanging overhead
I'm hoping that my heart will burst from the pain and then paint them red
Because I live under the red cloud devil in my head
I'm just a rebel and the weather always red
So then what if the red would leave me, then people I know don't see me
And when I tell them my name in their language they don't believe me
And without this rebel's crown gotta think about how to be me
So maybe that Cloud relieved me, I need it, it doesn't need me
When I'm sitting here buzzing and thinking and got no loving
Remember that Cloud was here through my worst and them people wasn't
I tell them all of needs and I watch them get up to leave
Now my heart is like Mr. Freeze, all these f**ing people to please
I've been away for a while and I loved them they didn't know though
I think about their smiles now I only see them in photos
Because they left me when I needed them, erase them out my memory
Found peace when I deleted them, rebel soul won't concede to them
I'm bleeding while I breathe in rum, I got my reasons
To drink that drama before the devil knows I'm dead I'm leaving
I lived on Earth he sees it broke my heart so now we're even
I see that Red Cloud in the sky I know it's never leaving