I was real f**ed up
Stressing about my ex dog
Started looking for something for me to take the stress off
I met with the connect and told him to get me right
He said "this sh** polar you know i bare white"
Pulled out the stacks man you know how i do things
Just hope it ain't laced up like shoe strings
He said "nah this sh** got a kick like liu kang"
Guess imma' buy polar like mood swings
So i started looking back thinking about the past
Getting faded to fade these memories to black
Not knowing where I'm at or where i stand
I hate my reflection in the mirror man
I became everything that i said i wouldn't be
And right now I'm everything that i shouldn't be
So welcome to the life of a scumbag
And i don't really give a f** like i cum fast
You want to know whats in my mind ?
You want to know whats in my brain
You want to hear these voices talking that are driving me insane
I dare ye' compare me to a no name
I'm superman they in the lowest lane
I'm like Freddy mixed with Jason
Adjacent to a basement
Contained with whips and chains
And k**ers , blades and maces
They say I'm going crazy at least I'm going somewhere
It took my ex to see I'm anywhere if d** there
(bridge)
Is this really how i am ?
They still speak bologna i still go ham?
Is this really how it is ?
I use to be a pacifist and now i pa** the fist
Is this really how i do?
What is going on does someone have a clue ?
I know what it is and this is gonna' be the first time i admit
(hook)
I think I'm going crazy
I think I'm going psycho
Everyday the same things repeating like a cycle
I see the same faces i go the same places
Whens it going to change, don't think I'm going to make it
I think I'm going crazy i think I'm going mental popping pills
Everyday and i don't think its helpful
I see the same dealers i make the same deals
The only thing changing is the color of my pills
As time goes on I'm not the same person that i use to be
Don't know whats going on but i know its k**ing me
I just say what the voices say to me
Everyone around is a , enemy
See i ave no friends to me
Due to fake tendencies
I'm a different type of entity
Yes i bug out like a centipede
Coming at your head like Kennedy
I'm too real i keep it a century
Got this game locked up like a felony
But I'm going crazy like ledger be
(hook)
I think I'm going crazy
I think I'm going psycho
Everyday the same things repeating like a cycle
I see the same faces i go the same places
Whens it going to change, don't think I'm going to make it
I think I'm going crazy i think I'm going mental popping pills
Everyday and i don't think its helpful
I see the same dealers i make the same deals
The only thing changing is the color of my pills