[Verse 1]
I ain't got money to smoke, and I can't afford to leave you
f**ing broke, selling coke, which is more than legal
I can't cope trying to blend in with the normal people
The one's who normally judge you even before they meet you
Don't mean to tarnish, I'm sorry for being honest look
I got some issues kid I'm something like a comic book
Because even with the fattest verses and the bombest hooks
Life is still a mountain climb and I ain't got no harness hooked
No alternative, I'll school you and keep you educated
I'm so medicated with chronic it's got me vegetated
When me and Mary separated I just escalated
To a higher power now liquor has got me extra faded
And every girl I f**, I could see me wifing up
But I got trust issues, so it's like tonight's enough
When night's are rough, I like to puff, thinking life is tough
Now that I'm home I'll light a dutch just f**ing light it up
[Hook]
Deep inside I feel like the world hates me (tough sh** man it is what it is)
So if I die then nobody try to save me (tough sh** man it is what it is)
Wish I was high, I feel like I'm going crazy (tough sh** man it is what it is)
But all the pain and the fire is what makes me, because life's a b**h and it is what it is
[Verse 2]
I ain't got money for rent, so I ain't got a home
My money spent, mom and dad say I'm on my own
Wish I had friends, but even then I still ain't got a phone
Wish I was bent, this sh** would be easier if I was stoned
I think the devil is tryna show me what my eyes should see
And god's the rivalry so he'll say that he lied to me
But I ain't tryna sit around and see who sides with me
So I'm like f** them both I'll be who I decide to be
I've grown vocally, lyrically, known locally
But smoke with me and hopefully I can do better socially
Because if you spoke to me sober I think we both would see
I'm kinda shy, so in the sky is where we both should be
I wasn't high and lost my mind, now I'd love to find it
Because truth be told my entire future is undecided
I really wanna be a rapper so I underlined it
But now I wanna be happy so rap is underminded
[Hook]
[Verse 3]
I know that I can count on you, but I hold you accountable
For everything that happens until the day that I encounter you
I wrote a song to you, because I would sit and wander through
The memories you let me see and now I'm catching onto you
You're in the driver's seat, as stubborn as I try to be
I try to see the fact that I can't change what you decide for me
It's just when you're as high as me, you feel like you ain't moving on
Thinking like this isn't right until you go and prove me wrong
This wasn't my decision, you put you in my position
You showed me what I was missin' until I took what I was given
I try to listen, it's just that I don't follow my religion
Take me where I need to be, it's not like you need my permission
Because you have all the say, so if I couldn't walk away
From d**h if he had called today then there'd be nothing more to say
I'm with you all the way, no matter what I say in rap
I'm a different person now, it isn't me that's saying that
[Hook]