[Verse 1: Kyd Wah-Lee]
Alienated, and i ain't even hated/
I don't even hate it, until i need a place thats/
Far away from home but, close enough to make it/
Without having a car, maybe thats the way its/
Ment to be, mentally i can't stand it/
Wanna' get away, but don't wanna feel stranded/
People all around me but we don't relate at all/
Some of them related but we don't even talk at all/
Maybe I'm just a loaner, Marry Jane and corona/
Sound like a date to me with a little less of the drama/
Dear lord why you make me this way/
Do i need to consult the devil because i strayed/
Should'a never spit game at what we call life/
Knew i was trying to f** the world thats when sh** got triff/
It was better when i wanted a nine to five for success/
But soon as you stretch out of the box they want to protest/
f** 'em'! tell 'em i ain't sh** we all the same/
Only difference is i noticed and wanted to change/
And you still thinking that collage gone pay yo bill/
But you ain't got no ambition and life is really real/
So real, even ambition can k** you/
Or have you k**ing yourself to make the whole world feel you/
Problem is they probably never will/
Whats drive if you waiting for god to take the wheel but crash/
I'd rather swerve then drown in my sin/
Have an intervention with the common sense that i bend/
Telling ourselves I'm fine with the way that i live/
So i can motivate some people that can give two sh**s/
About, all my commitment problems/
Or the fights with my momma/
Or how i could'a found myself but was finding the drama/
Or how the only way i feel ill make it up to her/
Is if i be the man she never seen in my father/
The load has got me walking in the street/
With an american spirit violently calming me/
And ain't nobody in my contacts calling me/
They don't know I'm on the edge like armor king/
Lost my n***a to suicide/
n***as talking bout him swear they know how he really died/
Say they could'a saved him but they couldn't do it/
Why, oh, i get it/
That ain't the way it works, my bad/
I ain't sorry for offending you n***as/
The cousin of d**h, showed me that my all can be bigger/
Say what i want, i been hated before my n***a/
So i ain't got a problem saying you ain't my n***a/
If you ain't my n***as/
Cause you ain't my n***as/