Kyd Wah-Lee - Eyes Open lyrics

[Verse 1: Kyd Wah-Lee] Alienated, and i ain't even hated/ I don't even hate it, until i need a place thats/ Far away from home but, close enough to make it/ Without having a car, maybe thats the way its/ Ment to be, mentally i can't stand it/ Wanna' get away, but don't wanna feel stranded/ People all around me but we don't relate at all/ Some of them related but we don't even talk at all/ Maybe I'm just a loaner, Marry Jane and corona/ Sound like a date to me with a little less of the drama/ Dear lord why you make me this way/ Do i need to consult the devil because i strayed/ Should'a never spit game at what we call life/ Knew i was trying to f** the world thats when sh** got triff/ It was better when i wanted a nine to five for success/ But soon as you stretch out of the box they want to protest/ f** 'em'! tell 'em i ain't sh** we all the same/ Only difference is i noticed and wanted to change/ And you still thinking that collage gone pay yo bill/ But you ain't got no ambition and life is really real/ So real, even ambition can k** you/ Or have you k**ing yourself to make the whole world feel you/ Problem is they probably never will/ Whats drive if you waiting for god to take the wheel but crash/ I'd rather swerve then drown in my sin/ Have an intervention with the common sense that i bend/ Telling ourselves I'm fine with the way that i live/ So i can motivate some people that can give two sh**s/ About, all my commitment problems/ Or the fights with my momma/ Or how i could'a found myself but was finding the drama/ Or how the only way i feel ill make it up to her/ Is if i be the man she never seen in my father/ The load has got me walking in the street/ With an american spirit violently calming me/ And ain't nobody in my contacts calling me/ They don't know I'm on the edge like armor king/ Lost my n***a to suicide/ n***as talking bout him swear they know how he really died/ Say they could'a saved him but they couldn't do it/ Why, oh, i get it/ That ain't the way it works, my bad/ I ain't sorry for offending you n***as/ The cousin of d**h, showed me that my all can be bigger/ Say what i want, i been hated before my n***a/ So i ain't got a problem saying you ain't my n***a/ If you ain't my n***as/ Cause you ain't my n***as/