Lonely am I though I try to look otherwise
Laugh or smile
Disguise or rather hide
The insecurities is it i feed
You ask
Why mask What the f** is going on with me?
Why should you care
And I remember thinking to myself
God if you're up there send me down someone who gives a f**
It's hard living, it's hard times in my mind
Doubt everything around me yet I say
I'm fine (You're not fine)
I tell myself
I'm alright (You're not right)
It's insane the things I wish that I had felt
Like the piercing sting of a fathers belt
Because tough loves still love
Love's tough, I know this much
So f** you cause i guarantee life's harder when you got none
And yet still I try
They say the guilty dog barks first, and i've been barking til my f**ing throat hurts, X2
For 20 years I've tried to escape what makes me, me
Someone listen, that is all I've ever wanted for years