Lonely am I though I try to look otherwise Laugh or smile Disguise or rather hide The insecurities is it i feed You ask Why mask What the f** is going on with me? Why should you care And I remember thinking to myself God if you're up there send me down someone who gives a f** It's hard living, it's hard times in my mind Doubt everything around me yet I say I'm fine (You're not fine) I tell myself I'm alright (You're not right) It's insane the things I wish that I had felt Like the piercing sting of a fathers belt Because tough loves still love Love's tough, I know this much So f** you cause i guarantee life's harder when you got none And yet still I try They say the guilty dog barks first, and i've been barking til my f**ing throat hurts, X2 For 20 years I've tried to escape what makes me, me Someone listen, that is all I've ever wanted for years