[Verse]
If I tell you everything is going good I'm probably lying
You wouldn't understand if I explained why bother trying
My aunty Evelyn's in Cameroon I caught her crying
Her body's giving out, and she fears the thought of dying
I was relying on the fact that I might get the wealth
Or use the bread from my advance so she finds better health
Swear that made me feel a way that I never felt
So I prayed to get a deal so that I'd get to help
Now that was last year and I'm still not established
While my mom's sister's playing dead on that mattress
Fighting for her life like I said, it is madness
If you do exsist god, I beg, let her have it
She's in her early forties, heard they said she ain't have kids
I'll love her like my mother till I'm dead in my cascade
The thought of losing her, in my head it's more graphic
She had something for me even when she didn't have sh**
It's been ten years of havoc I just pray that she gets well
Before time starts to sprint like a Nextel
I take a deep breath of regrets, as I exhale
I start to think like what if my request fails
Mean, what if next year I am still in this basement
There goes more time that I feel I'll be wasting
Cousins say I'll pay their bills when I'm caking
That's the type of sh** I really am facing
So brilliant I'm racing with time are you with me
Resiliently pacing cause pops just turned fifty
Before his birthday he sat me down and we had a chat
Said he was proud of me I'm astounded because of that
He wished me the best as far as following my dreams
I'm glad cause that day I got to blow a lot steam
Said he loved me no matter how he showed it might've seemed
I guess he wanted me to just know he's on my team
So all the fights we had can be left in the past
But I can't just forget all the stress, it's attached
After all that has happened truthfully feels weird
But he's still here, that's proof that he still cares
See mom was his side chick he could have walked out
But he stayed and to me well, that part counts
He told me if he dies keep the family together
Guess now that I'm a man, I understand a bit better
Long story short what I'm trying to say is
“Infinity & beyond” is off of my playlist
My goal by twenty twelve is to be where a Drake is
My pockets are as light as his skin I can't take this
You see I try hard not to make conversation
I have evil thoughts but somehow conning Satan
I tend to dumb myself down just to be more relatable
Bit off more than I could chew and right now my plate is full
Life's a pretty b**h; her facial would make you drool
Pulling tricks on me so that makes me the April fool
I want to break up like I would if was playing pool
All of this anger can't be channeled it's not cable news
In a love triangle I'm not sure which way to choose
I've always done it my way; no I won't obey the rules
I hear them call me crazy and honestly it may be true
When you break the norm I guess it's what they label you
I thought like I was twenty two just around the age of two
Saw my cla** mates as fools that's why I hated school
I tried to fit in but I just wasn't able to
Too smart to act dumb so f** whoever made it cool
Now I'm getting older, need a girl to be faithful to
Walk to the alter look in her face and say “I do”
But then I think of if she goes on a date or two
They say that nothing's promised but a grave and I say it too
At times I do feel like the truth is mistakable
I'd love to be fall in love if I truly am capable
I ain't going to lie see I use to player boo
Wouldn't do it now cause I won't know what say to you
All we need is trust I promise that we'll make it through
And while we're at it we should go make a baby too
From now till we're eighty two I want to grow grey with you
But I can't commit now, I got to go make this paper boo
It's all premature, I haven't been on a date with you
When it's right you just know so let's write out a fable, you
Can even choose the places where we'll take it to
If it was up to me though I wouldn't need a break from you
I've spent my whole lifetime debating this issue
But our families are like family let's make it official
The haters will diss you because greatness is with you
Baby all I want is for your days to be blissful (so smile)
At least for the moment...
[Outro]
And so A journey began...