KING Karlemagne - Smile lyrics

[Verse] If I tell you everything is going good I'm probably lying You wouldn't understand if I explained why bother trying My aunty Evelyn's in Cameroon I caught her crying Her body's giving out, and she fears the thought of dying I was relying on the fact that I might get the wealth Or use the bread from my advance so she finds better health Swear that made me feel a way that I never felt So I prayed to get a deal so that I'd get to help Now that was last year and I'm still not established While my mom's sister's playing dead on that mattress Fighting for her life like I said, it is madness If you do exsist god, I beg, let her have it She's in her early forties, heard they said she ain't have kids I'll love her like my mother till I'm dead in my cascade The thought of losing her, in my head it's more graphic She had something for me even when she didn't have sh** It's been ten years of havoc I just pray that she gets well Before time starts to sprint like a Nextel I take a deep breath of regrets, as I exhale I start to think like what if my request fails Mean, what if next year I am still in this basement There goes more time that I feel I'll be wasting Cousins say I'll pay their bills when I'm caking That's the type of sh** I really am facing So brilliant I'm racing with time are you with me Resiliently pacing cause pops just turned fifty Before his birthday he sat me down and we had a chat Said he was proud of me I'm astounded because of that He wished me the best as far as following my dreams I'm glad cause that day I got to blow a lot steam Said he loved me no matter how he showed it might've seemed I guess he wanted me to just know he's on my team So all the fights we had can be left in the past But I can't just forget all the stress, it's attached After all that has happened truthfully feels weird But he's still here, that's proof that he still cares See mom was his side chick he could have walked out But he stayed and to me well, that part counts He told me if he dies keep the family together Guess now that I'm a man, I understand a bit better Long story short what I'm trying to say is “Infinity & beyond” is off of my playlist My goal by twenty twelve is to be where a Drake is My pockets are as light as his skin I can't take this You see I try hard not to make conversation I have evil thoughts but somehow conning Satan I tend to dumb myself down just to be more relatable Bit off more than I could chew and right now my plate is full Life's a pretty b**h; her facial would make you drool Pulling tricks on me so that makes me the April fool I want to break up like I would if was playing pool All of this anger can't be channeled it's not cable news In a love triangle I'm not sure which way to choose I've always done it my way; no I won't obey the rules I hear them call me crazy and honestly it may be true When you break the norm I guess it's what they label you I thought like I was twenty two just around the age of two Saw my cla** mates as fools that's why I hated school I tried to fit in but I just wasn't able to Too smart to act dumb so f** whoever made it cool Now I'm getting older, need a girl to be faithful to Walk to the alter look in her face and say “I do” But then I think of if she goes on a date or two They say that nothing's promised but a grave and I say it too At times I do feel like the truth is mistakable I'd love to be fall in love if I truly am capable I ain't going to lie see I use to player boo Wouldn't do it now cause I won't know what say to you All we need is trust I promise that we'll make it through And while we're at it we should go make a baby too From now till we're eighty two I want to grow grey with you But I can't commit now, I got to go make this paper boo It's all premature, I haven't been on a date with you When it's right you just know so let's write out a fable, you Can even choose the places where we'll take it to If it was up to me though I wouldn't need a break from you I've spent my whole lifetime debating this issue But our families are like family let's make it official The haters will diss you because greatness is with you Baby all I want is for your days to be blissful (so smile) At least for the moment... [Outro] And so A journey began...