[Joe Budden]
(1 and 2 was for y'all, this one's for me)
I finally found a pa**ion I lacked before
I can't believe I didn't catch on to the act before
I mean I voiced my complaints, that went ignored
A few things you felt that you was too attractive for
Cuz everything out your mouth said that you ain't wanna hurt
Love the lifestyle we lived, but you ain't wanna work
So I'd sit you down and say its getting outta hand
While you shoot down every idea, busy worried about a brand
When ya baby dad said all that sh** that was trife
How you was married, requesting dick pics from Lyfe
Though it all seems Shady, maybe I was crazy
I ignored my gut feelin, nah not my baby
Accusing me, but pretending yourself
I couldn't catch it, too busy defending myself
Or was I wrong not seeing a life without you
Or taking everything that you said to face value
When you packed up and left dude, I was so glad
Should of questioned how you easily became a nomad
If I could do it all again, it wouldn't of happened so fast
And it burns with every line jotted in this note pad
Cuz at first you resembled my twin
Fast forward, you gave me identical twins
But then you lost it, honestly that murked my soul
Cuz though we weren't tryna have one, we got off the birth control
And we was right back at it, f**ing like addicts
While you was disrupting what was seeming like a marriage
You never got embarra**ed, interrogating me but that was just Yaris
Yeah we beefing I dragged you off the bed
I swear to this day I re-enact in my head
So I hemmed you up, wasn't what I aimed to do
I ain't attack you, b**h I was restraining you!
But you was wifey, though I understand that its not a game
Could you imagine my surprise when the cops came
Handcuffed me, you pressed charges
But I made bail its just heartless
You can't smash my laptop on the wall
And then think I wasn't gonna react, scratch that
I mean you can't call my mom like can I crash at your spot, whattup
When I'm her son and you just locked me up
But wait, this is where it really gets deep
Judge said she gets control of the house for a week
Filed a restraining order so she couldn't come near me
The f** else I do but go right back to Tahiry
I'm sleeping on her couch, not discussing sh**
Staring at the fattest a**, not f**in it
I guess despite everything that she showed me
It felt good to be around a broad that really knows me
I missed all the arguing and yapping
Percocet and muscle relaxers in a napkin
Can't believe that it happened
I lost my unborn daughter when we fought
I'm thinking I k**ed Aspen!
And that's when I thought that we'd be dead awhile
But we decided to reconcile
Im so hungover from love and what not
How could you not expect us to take another shot
But during all this time we don't live together
Stupid me thought that you would go get your sh** together
You know, get a job or if acting's your career
Seems you've persued the sh** for a year from right here
And it appears, along with all the yelling and the screaming
We both at the table, but my side is leaning
But rather than end it, we tried to mend it
f** bein a couple, lets work on a friendship
But then it got weird, I was stunned from that
You took it to a place where there was no coming back
Off my last break up, I was able to stomach that
Two weeks removed and you f**ing with a running back
Life is in shambles, disguised as a damsel
Lies are a handful
Bouncing off of, different guys lookin scrambled
Despised how it was handled
But when you ain't got a dime, why not decide to gamble
Said you'd be in L.A. doing business
I'm thinking that's great, I can't fault her
Said that you would be with Jennifer the whole time
But you probably didn't think that I would call her
She said she ain't seen you since you landed
And for days she been blowing up your phone like a stalker
And all I could do is laugh at myself
As I thought, why is old girl s**ing off Derrick Ward for?
Said we was makin it right, but you couldn't!
On the phone, I said skype, but you wouldn't!
The puzzle starts coming together and its brutal
Won't Skype, Gmail chat, won't Oovoo
The whole time I'm noticing you acting unusual
And I can't figure out who the f** your being true to
Said the Wifi was down in the tele
But you ain't say that you was at hotel his house!
Looking like a groupie
Or maybe I misunderstood when you said y'all 2 was makin a movie
Looking at the sh** pile I stepped in again
And to top it off your ho a** is pregnant again? Not again!
I been through the whirl so I s** it up
Its less about the lie more about the cover-ups
So you busted, but your adding to the friction
Cuz you deny it all but you do it with conviction
So you talkin to me real disparaging
So what attitude, coming off arrogant
If I wanted a trophy wife, then you could be
But all it looks like is that you renting out p**y
Less about you, nah you ain't the one
You grown, you got choices, I'm worried about your son
That's what got me up being an insomniac
Little n***a can't control how his mommy act
As for me, I'm trying to flush you out my system
So I counter by filming all my s**ual encounters
Mentally not there while I'm screwing
And I only keep going cuz thats what your doing
I'm trying to see, how's it done, how's it possible
Enough to put a weak n***a in the hospital
Starin at one ex, talking about another
But this one would k** if it meant I wouldn't suffer
But she taking little shots, Im getting ridiculed
Cuz all she complained about, I went and did with you
Said she knew it wouldn't last when I lived with you
She's not your type, she ain't got the right hips for you
So you try and take something for pain, it don't work
You still feeling all the Novocaine don't work
Nope so we good, I don't let it get me down
Not a p**y that good nor a titty that round
For anything to work, y'all trust is a must
And I learned, gotta let a mutt be with a mutt
So I dead that b**h and though the sh**'s been over
Some situations don't end without Closure