[Verse 1]
Bathe in bleach
The cold embrace of carbon monoxide teeth
Chronic pain in the nerves of my brain
Make the jump
Always question when I'll have had enough
I'm counting down the days 'till the final song plays
[Chorus 1]
I've lost control, and I can't take it back
As I lay in my castle and give in to the attacks
The walls are closing in
And my head is holding sin
[Verse 2]
I can see the outline of my skull
Holding in the shadow of my soul
I'm my own chain on my back
I make what I give and take
And I hope that you're quiet when you sneak out the door
So I don't wake up, cause my eyes will never adjust
To blinding white light in this unholy night
[Chorus 2]
And I don't have to worry about relevancy
Cause all of these things are always happening to me
I try to escape to the emptiest room
[Bridge]
But I'm not ready to say goodbye
I'm not ready to say goodbye
I'm not sure how long I'll be alive
But I'm not ready to say goodbye
I can't say if I'll meet 25
But I'm not ready to say goodbye
(All I can do and it's never enough
I'm gambling my life and I'm calling my bluff
Steady fixation with commas and lines
Burning through pages to buy me some time)
[Chorus 3]
Someday the phone will ring
And someone will be on the other side of the line
To hear all my laments
When I've burned all I could and I've finally reached the end
I've lost control, and I can't take it back
As I lay in my castle and give in to the attacks
The walls are closing in
And my head is holding sin
[End]
When I've finally pushed away everyone
And there's no place left for me to run
Maybe I can start it all again...