(Chorus)
I shouldn't have to try so hard just to see a smile
Water so deep I'm about to drown
When I wanna rise I just sink back down
So hard to breathe right now
Right now
Right now
(Verse One)
I been dealing with depression
I'm guessing that's a big confession
Cus n***as don't show emotions
They hide and rather suppress em
I been lacking aggression and pa**ion, lacking a motive
I been down in the dumps I'm trumped, not able to focus
Ok I'm thinking and an*lyzing
Stressing what's unnecessary
I should know better cus pain is only temporary
I'm trynna be legendary, touch paper like secretaries
Happiness the motive now everything is secondary
Sinking and I'm drowning
When I overcome a hill I walk into a mountain
My eyes drop water like a fountain
I took so many L's but who's counting
To calculate my L's I might need an accountant
I'm overwhelmed with emotion sinking in the ocean
Can't float or swim, would I shine again?
Can't rise or win, would I shine again?
I feel like I will never ever shine again
(Chorus)
I shouldn't have to try so hard just to see a smile
Water so deep I'm about to drown
When I wanna rise I just sink back down
So hard to breathe right now
Right now
Right now
(Outro Verse)
Never sipping champagne cus it's hard to celebrate
I try to run from my demons but they chase
I'm hardly staying above water as I'm gasping for air
In a puddle of tears and the feeling that nobody cares
Why is it so hard to crack a smile or feel some joy?
Put your ear to my heart; tell me do you hear noise?
Cus it's hard to breathe right now are my lungs collapsing
Feel like my soul is dying, hurry go get a casket
This pain I deal with I try but I can't mask it
So let a mortician dress me who loves fly fashion
I can't fight the devil he won't stop hara**ing
I can't fight the devil he won't stop attacking
I'm not lying, I'm dying yea my time is pa**ing
If you ever saw me smiling well I was acting
Yea I know I'm cracking and the devils laughing
And all I see is water now like I'm fasting
I'm drowning