(Chorus) I shouldn't have to try so hard just to see a smile Water so deep I'm about to drown When I wanna rise I just sink back down So hard to breathe right now Right now Right now (Verse One) I been dealing with depression I'm guessing that's a big confession Cus n***as don't show emotions They hide and rather suppress em I been lacking aggression and pa**ion, lacking a motive I been down in the dumps I'm trumped, not able to focus Ok I'm thinking and an*lyzing Stressing what's unnecessary I should know better cus pain is only temporary I'm trynna be legendary, touch paper like secretaries Happiness the motive now everything is secondary Sinking and I'm drowning When I overcome a hill I walk into a mountain My eyes drop water like a fountain I took so many L's but who's counting To calculate my L's I might need an accountant I'm overwhelmed with emotion sinking in the ocean Can't float or swim, would I shine again? Can't rise or win, would I shine again? I feel like I will never ever shine again (Chorus) I shouldn't have to try so hard just to see a smile Water so deep I'm about to drown When I wanna rise I just sink back down So hard to breathe right now Right now Right now (Outro Verse) Never sipping champagne cus it's hard to celebrate I try to run from my demons but they chase I'm hardly staying above water as I'm gasping for air In a puddle of tears and the feeling that nobody cares Why is it so hard to crack a smile or feel some joy? Put your ear to my heart; tell me do you hear noise? Cus it's hard to breathe right now are my lungs collapsing Feel like my soul is dying, hurry go get a casket This pain I deal with I try but I can't mask it So let a mortician dress me who loves fly fashion I can't fight the devil he won't stop hara**ing I can't fight the devil he won't stop attacking I'm not lying, I'm dying yea my time is pa**ing If you ever saw me smiling well I was acting Yea I know I'm cracking and the devils laughing And all I see is water now like I'm fasting I'm drowning