I'm worth actually striving for,
got sick & tired of games.
If I'm not what is meant to be
then I should do the same;
I shall give up at your 'f** off.'
And my mouth won't speak your name.
Realize what you have lost;
reciprocate my pain. I think it's about time for me to gain control;
ease up & if it's meant, just let go. Fess up baby, what is it that you need?
I wanted to give us another chance.
Now I don't really see.
I wanted you to try & seem like you cared.
I could've met you halfway,
It's never guaranteed you'll be there.
Don't tell me you were longing just like I had all the time.
I'm ill of waking every morning;
vitals pounding like the scene of a crime. I've got these problems, know it.
I've got these problems, know it.
Break these shackles bare handed;
try to show it.
I've gained myself striving to control this. My heart has already stopped.
I'll throw the key & hold the lock.
I'll resurrect; a fresh new breath
on our dead anniversary. So, I'll lay me down;
I'll keep my heart in check.
& I'll rid the final remnants
that almost were a gun straight to my head. Don't lie to me now & say you never loved me;
Don't deny our hearts could've met up once more.
Don't tell me you're fine then drunken miss me,
I know you truly don't give a f** anymore. I remember something from a card that's engraved in my head.
Luckily it's not a blur // I've rewrote our ties in red.
You told me you loved me more than anyone in the world.
We shared so f**ing much, your lies are gonna make me hurl. I've got these problems, know it.
I've got these problems, know it.
Break these shackles bare handed;
try to show it.
I've gained myself striving to control this. My heart has already stopped.
I'll throw the key & hold the lock.
I'll resurrect; a fresh new breath
on our dead anniversary. You WERE always in my mind; it didn't matter what you said.
But Up til now I feel it; Your concept of love is DEAD. Love is but a mere illusion;
fading deep into seclusion.
I'm learning to keep my composure
like getting out of an institution.
I can't help but to stop & think;
why I let you bring me to the brink.
I know I can & will do better
See my knife; the rust is redder.
at least clarify to me why you f**ing tried?
Did you really miss me?
or did the booze make you lie? Then giving up on me; right then and there I died.
You were actually worth every single tear that I cried.
I'm not even gonna lie, I know you truly were the best.
Just my f**ing luck;
of course another life test. It was natures way of getting to me // opening my eyes.
But I can tell you it's still hard for me to look at other guys. There's now a darker side to me // ark-angel; spread my wings.
Let's see how far your life goes ditching destiny My heart has already stopped.
I'll throw the key & hold the lock.
I'll resurrect; a fresh new breath
on our dead anniversary.