Cody Ma**acre - Dead Anniversary lyrics

I'm worth actually striving for, got sick & tired of games. If I'm not what is meant to be then I should do the same; I shall give up at your 'f** off.' And my mouth won't speak your name. Realize what you have lost; reciprocate my pain. I think it's about time for me to gain control; ease up & if it's meant, just let go. Fess up baby, what is it that you need? I wanted to give us another chance. Now I don't really see. I wanted you to try & seem like you cared. I could've met you halfway, It's never guaranteed you'll be there. Don't tell me you were longing just like I had all the time. I'm ill of waking every morning; vitals pounding like the scene of a crime. I've got these problems, know it. I've got these problems, know it. Break these shackles bare handed; try to show it. I've gained myself striving to control this. My heart has already stopped. I'll throw the key & hold the lock. I'll resurrect; a fresh new breath on our dead anniversary. So, I'll lay me down; I'll keep my heart in check. & I'll rid the final remnants that almost were a gun straight to my head. Don't lie to me now & say you never loved me; Don't deny our hearts could've met up once more. Don't tell me you're fine then drunken miss me, I know you truly don't give a f** anymore. I remember something from a card that's engraved in my head. Luckily it's not a blur // I've rewrote our ties in red. You told me you loved me more than anyone in the world. We shared so f**ing much, your lies are gonna make me hurl. I've got these problems, know it. I've got these problems, know it. Break these shackles bare handed; try to show it. I've gained myself striving to control this. My heart has already stopped. I'll throw the key & hold the lock. I'll resurrect; a fresh new breath on our dead anniversary. You WERE always in my mind; it didn't matter what you said. But Up til now I feel it; Your concept of love is DEAD. Love is but a mere illusion; fading deep into seclusion. I'm learning to keep my composure like getting out of an institution. I can't help but to stop & think; why I let you bring me to the brink. I know I can & will do better See my knife; the rust is redder. at least clarify to me why you f**ing tried? Did you really miss me? or did the booze make you lie? Then giving up on me; right then and there I died. You were actually worth every single tear that I cried. I'm not even gonna lie, I know you truly were the best. Just my f**ing luck; of course another life test. It was natures way of getting to me // opening my eyes. But I can tell you it's still hard for me to look at other guys. There's now a darker side to me // ark-angel; spread my wings. Let's see how far your life goes ditching destiny My heart has already stopped. I'll throw the key & hold the lock. I'll resurrect; a fresh new breath on our dead anniversary.