[Verse 1 : PayBac]
I'd give
My all
My sweat my blood
For a second chance lord
They say my
Mistakes make
Me who i am but i don't wanna be me no more
Where's my lawyer
I ain't sign up this sh**
Pencil in Gods hand why he ain't erase all this sh**
Crash in a writers block
I can't write no more
I can't lie no more
I can't hide no more
Don't feel alive no more
Oh lord
Only open up behind closed doors
Maybe i am not as real as i thought
What to do with all this pills that i bought
Whens the last night that i was sober
Muscle cramp from all this dream chasing
Everytime i sleep i see satan
If I'm going to hell anyways then
The question is why i keep waiting
Had my back to the rope
Took my back off the rope
Wrapped the rope around my neck
Father its my time to go
Look at a mirror then i cried
Came off the stool and smiled
I know I'm the f**ing sh**
And I'm Grateful that I'm still alive
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You might not know this
You so full of wonder and I'm so thankful
Cos you don't judge me for all I've done
I am grateful
So grateful
[Verse 2 : Boogey]
We don't say it often
Why do we appreciate people only when they lay in coffins
You been part of my journey, you sharing my pain and I pray endorphins..
..will be secreted when you need em and you bleeding and needing a person..
..to keep your head up, I promise I'll never let you stare at the floor
We sharing the sickness, we sharing the cure
You carry my burden i'm carrying yours
You saved me. I might have used them pills
You made see that even though life might be too shady, a brighter future still..
..is possible if i'm given hope
I mean I could choose to steal... cos a n***a broke
Depression and pressure, I consider coke
Sometimes.. I wanna OD
You come and hold me.. and say we die together and we need a bigger hole..
..and I already gave the grave digger doe..
...so.. whatever
People promise and leave and i'm sick of the vows
You never promise but you sticking around
I know people I've known for decades but never really knew em, I knew we would be quicker to click from the click of a mouse
Home is.. where the heart is, many times, mine been kicked from the house
Every time I roam, poor me
But you always have a home for me..
..and I never said it that i'm debted. I'm sorry
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