Charlie X - Grateful lyrics

[Verse 1 : PayBac] I'd give My all My sweat my blood For a second chance lord They say my Mistakes make Me who i am but i don't wanna be me no more Where's my lawyer I ain't sign up this sh** Pencil in Gods hand why he ain't erase all this sh** Crash in a writers block I can't write no more I can't lie no more I can't hide no more Don't feel alive no more Oh lord Only open up behind closed doors Maybe i am not as real as i thought What to do with all this pills that i bought Whens the last night that i was sober Muscle cramp from all this dream chasing Everytime i sleep i see satan If I'm going to hell anyways then The question is why i keep waiting Had my back to the rope Took my back off the rope Wrapped the rope around my neck Father its my time to go Look at a mirror then i cried Came off the stool and smiled I know I'm the f**ing sh** And I'm Grateful that I'm still alive [Chorus] You might not know this You so full of wonder and I'm so thankful Cos you don't judge me for all I've done I am grateful So grateful [Verse 2 : Boogey] We don't say it often Why do we appreciate people only when they lay in coffins You been part of my journey, you sharing my pain and I pray endorphins.. ..will be secreted when you need em and you bleeding and needing a person.. ..to keep your head up, I promise I'll never let you stare at the floor We sharing the sickness, we sharing the cure You carry my burden i'm carrying yours You saved me. I might have used them pills You made see that even though life might be too shady, a brighter future still.. ..is possible if i'm given hope I mean I could choose to steal... cos a n***a broke Depression and pressure, I consider coke Sometimes.. I wanna OD You come and hold me.. and say we die together and we need a bigger hole.. ..and I already gave the grave digger doe.. ...so.. whatever People promise and leave and i'm sick of the vows You never promise but you sticking around I know people I've known for decades but never really knew em, I knew we would be quicker to click from the click of a mouse Home is.. where the heart is, many times, mine been kicked from the house Every time I roam, poor me But you always have a home for me.. ..and I never said it that i'm debted. I'm sorry [Chorus x2]