As denial envelopes
And expands deep inside
Writhing internally
Disarrying my mind
Contorting my thoughts
Into agony and pain
I estrange and depart
This life I forsake
My will to live on is gone
To die is what I long
Contemplate ways to die
As escape from pathetic life
Forlorn hope
Now slips away
My vitality
Hopelessly fades
My d**h will se me free
To rest
In serenity
My lunacy debilitates
And reasoning begins to fail
The will to be capitulates
I surrender to my self hate
My mind reels out of control
Dementia has taken hold
Hallucinations take their toll
Upon my withering soul
The blades touch is cold as ice
A flash of light blinds my eyes
I lacerate my flesh and vein
Vital lifeforce now inundates
Blood puddles spray from my wrists
Etched on my face a look of bliss
As I lie, watching time
I embrace the end of my life
Now set free, to journey
Where darkness caresses me
My life gone
Essence withdrawn
Lying deceased a blood stained memory