Every time I open up
I instantly regret everything
Exposing the ins and outs
I wonder what I was thinking
Why I was so invested
Why did it hurt so much
Why did I let it consume
I hope I can see
What I can one day be
Numb the feeling of being inadequate
Close my eyes and breathe peacefully
Without worry
Without strain
Taking on problems that are far too large
Running towards a horizon that is way too far
This pressure upon my shoulders
Has caused me to crack
Stress consumed
I now sit and wait to be taken to the black
Fighting off exhaustion
Rising from fallen knees
Worn illusions of a better life
A better way, a better place
Where nothing matters
Nothing hurts
Without worry
Without strain
This thought isn't the answer to my problems
This will solve nothing
So I'll long and wait to be done with the stress
Without this strain