[Intro]
Yeah
Turn me up a little bit
Yeah, yeah
Big up Adot on this one
This is my letter
[Verse]
This a letter to you, cuz
A letter to our past
A letter to now
A letter to our future
I wish I could've done this sooner
I can't believe half of the things you said in that letter
Cuz, you should know me better
Like knew your ex was cheating on you?
You madman, never
She told everybody in college that you two broke up
Telling everyone it's over
Let me tell you why it's so nuts
I didn't even know she cheated until I heard your letter
That's why it's so f**ed
I can't believe that you thought all this sh**
And didn't hit my phone once
You kept sending shots for me
In every freestyle you wrote in
Then you'd ask me to repost it
I didn't even know how to approach it
It was mad nuts to me
You watched me and Kone bad up the scene
But I had these thoughts in my head, "Is my cuz even happy for me?"
Plus I heard little comments that you lot said about me
That got back to Shan
Then got back to man
So I was anti you
Can't lie, I was anti fam
Cuz, sh** weren't the same to me
Cuz, sh** felt strange to me
How can my own fam hate on me?
All these thoughts in your heads
Nobody came to me
Felt everybody changed on me
Man moved different
Then when sh** got distant
Man put the blame on me
He's too busy, he moves iffy
But truthfully, it was fake to me
Nobody ever offered to check me
Nobody even seen my house before
Nobody ever picked up the phone
Said, "cuz, what you doing now," "I coming round to yours"
For a minute didn't see you in ages
I felt like the love just faded
Cuz, you're my blood
But I felt more love from strangers
Me and you go way back
Me and you got the same tat
Forget about Cadet for now
I just want Blaine back
Every Sunday at nan's
Man ate together
Grandad's funeral
Man wept together
Had motives
Man crept together
We even thought of the name Cadet together
Before the lights and the camera
Before you spat even had a bar
The days I came Clapham every week to see man
Them times you bussed me on Shalimar
How did sh** get so awks?
Conversations so forced?
Our bond was unbreakable
Why the f** did we let that go for?
My mum sat me down and said
"You and Blaine, I don't see you together no more"
"What happened son?"
It bought a tear to my eye
I said, "I don't know what happened mum..."
I changed thinking that you've changed
You changed thinking that I've changed
We didn't communicate
Not once cuz
All these mind games
We should feel so ashamed
I realise we're both to blame
Grandad wouldn't be happy
Johnson's, we hold the name
And I know it's a letter to you
But I gotta tell Charn I miss her
Cause that's my cousin too
And that's your sister
Charn's the realest
I knew she had me
Back then when them yutes stabbed me
I was with a couple so called friends
And she's the only one that backed me
Dropped everybody else out that was there
I felt like it was just me and her
I swear to God
Man touch one piece of her
I'd put anyone six foot deep for her
And Blaine you had my back for me
When you heard my man never backed the beef
You ran my man down with a shank for me
Like how can you leave my family?
The next day you was riding
You was getting man down
Real life ting
You was really out there on the front line
There when it's crunch time
Real life bloodline
Cousins
You two are my closest
I need you both to know this
I'm so glad I wrote this
I love you
I know you thought (?) only bring me in
I had my reasons
Trust me cuz
It weren't no kinky ting
I hope you're listening
Firstly
I didn't want you to be known as Krept's cousin
Like, "who's that?"
"Ah, that's Krept's cousin"
Like, "who's song's that?"
"That's Krept's cousin"
Not Cadet Cadet, just Krept's cousin
Plus I tried guide you with music
You'd let me down again and again
I told you whenever you dropped something new
Hit them again and again
Then you drop a new track
And disappear again and again
Then you come back
And we'd go through the same conversation again and again
So I thought, let me bring him to Wireless
Let me show him wagwan, inspire him
So you can take it all in, and come back
Take the scene by lightning
And you did just that without knowing, cuz
Now Cadet's blowing up
Now you got the haters throwing up
Now they're going mad when you're showing up
As soon as you took this serious
Straight away had you onboard
No long brought you on tour
Advice if you weren't sure
Any links
What's mine is yours
Word
I'm here, cuzzy
That's a f**ing fact
Real f**ing rap
Now I'm getting my cousin back
Man I love you
[Outro]
Now you can stop sending for me, cuz, hah
Next time we can take it to Lord of the Mics, hah
Nah I'm joking
Love you