AdotSkitz - Letter To Cadet lyrics

[Intro] Yeah Turn me up a little bit Yeah, yeah Big up Adot on this one This is my letter [Verse] This a letter to you, cuz A letter to our past A letter to now A letter to our future I wish I could've done this sooner I can't believe half of the things you said in that letter Cuz, you should know me better Like knew your ex was cheating on you? You madman, never She told everybody in college that you two broke up Telling everyone it's over Let me tell you why it's so nuts I didn't even know she cheated until I heard your letter That's why it's so f**ed I can't believe that you thought all this sh** And didn't hit my phone once You kept sending shots for me In every freestyle you wrote in Then you'd ask me to repost it I didn't even know how to approach it It was mad nuts to me You watched me and Kone bad up the scene But I had these thoughts in my head, "Is my cuz even happy for me?" Plus I heard little comments that you lot said about me That got back to Shan Then got back to man So I was anti you Can't lie, I was anti fam Cuz, sh** weren't the same to me Cuz, sh** felt strange to me How can my own fam hate on me? All these thoughts in your heads Nobody came to me Felt everybody changed on me Man moved different Then when sh** got distant Man put the blame on me He's too busy, he moves iffy But truthfully, it was fake to me Nobody ever offered to check me Nobody even seen my house before Nobody ever picked up the phone Said, "cuz, what you doing now," "I coming round to yours" For a minute didn't see you in ages I felt like the love just faded Cuz, you're my blood But I felt more love from strangers Me and you go way back Me and you got the same tat Forget about Cadet for now I just want Blaine back Every Sunday at nan's Man ate together Grandad's funeral Man wept together Had motives Man crept together We even thought of the name Cadet together Before the lights and the camera Before you spat even had a bar The days I came Clapham every week to see man Them times you bussed me on Shalimar How did sh** get so awks? Conversations so forced? Our bond was unbreakable Why the f** did we let that go for? My mum sat me down and said "You and Blaine, I don't see you together no more" "What happened son?" It bought a tear to my eye I said, "I don't know what happened mum..." I changed thinking that you've changed You changed thinking that I've changed We didn't communicate Not once cuz All these mind games We should feel so ashamed I realise we're both to blame Grandad wouldn't be happy Johnson's, we hold the name And I know it's a letter to you But I gotta tell Charn I miss her Cause that's my cousin too And that's your sister Charn's the realest I knew she had me Back then when them yutes stabbed me I was with a couple so called friends And she's the only one that backed me Dropped everybody else out that was there I felt like it was just me and her I swear to God Man touch one piece of her I'd put anyone six foot deep for her And Blaine you had my back for me When you heard my man never backed the beef You ran my man down with a shank for me Like how can you leave my family? The next day you was riding You was getting man down Real life ting You was really out there on the front line There when it's crunch time Real life bloodline Cousins You two are my closest I need you both to know this I'm so glad I wrote this I love you I know you thought (?) only bring me in I had my reasons Trust me cuz It weren't no kinky ting I hope you're listening Firstly I didn't want you to be known as Krept's cousin Like, "who's that?" "Ah, that's Krept's cousin" Like, "who's song's that?" "That's Krept's cousin" Not Cadet Cadet, just Krept's cousin Plus I tried guide you with music You'd let me down again and again I told you whenever you dropped something new Hit them again and again Then you drop a new track And disappear again and again Then you come back And we'd go through the same conversation again and again So I thought, let me bring him to Wireless Let me show him wagwan, inspire him So you can take it all in, and come back Take the scene by lightning And you did just that without knowing, cuz Now Cadet's blowing up Now you got the haters throwing up Now they're going mad when you're showing up As soon as you took this serious Straight away had you onboard No long brought you on tour Advice if you weren't sure Any links What's mine is yours Word I'm here, cuzzy That's a f**ing fact Real f**ing rap Now I'm getting my cousin back Man I love you [Outro] Now you can stop sending for me, cuz, hah Next time we can take it to Lord of the Mics, hah Nah I'm joking Love you